Hi there my name is Colista,but any of you know me as cicicool07. I'm that one person putting witty silly and sometimes smart comments on Hamilton and Percy Jackson stuff. So back to my entry. My life has never been easy. I always hide in my online personas of a fun-loving exuberant and yet, quite oblivious girl. In reality I have anxiety and my life is a struggle just to put on a brave face. My friends are somewhere online and they are more than I could ask for. When I was little all I wanted was to change lives of others by simply being kind. When elementary school started I was hit by a harsh reality. I was terrified of bullies, getting bad grades and being mistreated. By second grade, I had lost friends and was hitting the point of despair. In third grade one of my friends moved to Arizona and another friend moved back to the little town in Wisconsin I live in. The friend who moved back was distant and slowly gaining popular while forgetting about me entirely. She gave me the impression that she was only friends with me because I had other friends that she liked and got along with. By fifth grade my friends were a highly nut allergic boy that was obsessed with horror games and Minecraft and, a boy who loved animals. When middle school struck I was that one kid who sat all by themselves because they went to a different elementary school. When I made new food friends who always would have a place in my heart and had no intentions of ever losing contact with me even if it meant sending letters, I remembered my dream that I had as a small child. So I started making my impact. I spread my light to the world. And yes, I'm a Mormon, I have been my whole life, yes I know that means no coffee,no smoking,no alcohol. But that also means I can and will shine my light for all to see. Right before I made my good friends I met the dirty minds. They took me in and tried to make me one of them. But I saw right through them and left. My friends they helped me see my lifelong goals and showed me how go reach them. I dream of being and art teacher. My friends helped me see that and showed me how and told me I should choose art as a choice elective. My friends even though they be wacky, they are true friends that I never ever deserve. I'm still I'm middle school but, even though my life is short I have such a story to tell. Thank you for your time.
