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chapter six; secrets

'Wait! Is this really it...?!'

That wasn't good. (Y/N) found the book and took it so quickly that he couldn't even think about that 'colorful' thing Namjoon had mentioned.

Though it was a book from the library and she couldn't keep it for long, but still letting that important book to be in a mere girls hands was dangerous.

"You like historical books?" Hoseok asked, so he wouldn't look suspicious or anything, though he was still shocked.

"I guess...no? But this one might really be special! I have a Kinda different feeling about...what about you guys?" She answered, as she didn't have a clue that the book in her hands was the key to all the things that had happened in some lives.

"I'm not the one for History either, but I'd like to read it, it feels so much different" Hoseok answered, as he prayed that (Y/N) would let him to take the book first.

'Of course that feels different!!! THAT IS SPECIAL!' he thought, before the thought of Namjoon finding out about that even snapped to his mind.
And for him that was just funny to see a Namjoon exploding of anger.

"I'm not the one to give up on books. You can take it after I read it!" She said and giggled at her own words and at Hoseoks face.
He looked damaged, and she just thought that is because of the passion to read.

Thinking that Hoseok has never even been interested in books, let alone historical ones, Jimin knew that his friend meant something by that.

'Everything has a reason, a reason that I'm not allowed to know at all...but why?'

Thinking of the past, he was never allowed to know things. A life filled with secrets he didn't even have a clue about.

Was it his life or others?

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"I'll do it if I know your reasons, hyung..." he said, desperately.
Jimin was tired of secrets. He felt like an idiot, when the four older than him knew everything and he knew just nothing.

"I don't know...it's not an occasion that I can tell the reason to you....it's just...nothing..."
Namjoon couldn't think of a logical reason to all the things he was hiding from the three boys younger than him.

"I'll keep my promise, do you not trust me? All I want is that reason. Why is there any hiding between us?"
The brown headed was keeping himself from losing trust in them.

"You're not the problem, Jimin ah...it's just, the matter of safety...in case that nothing happens...alright?" Jin would always speak softly and make Jimin gain trust in his friends again.

"Alright...but please...don't do anything dangerous to anyone..." Jimin said, walking out of the library, where Jin and Namjoon were talking.

And they both kept looking at his figure until he exited and closed the door behind him.

"Not anymore"

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'All I can ever do is to trust them...to trust others...'

"Jimin!" He snapped back to reality by the quiet but still sharp voice of the (h/c) headed girl.
"Oh...yes?" He answered, still confused.

"She's called you a couple of times but you were dead in your thoughts." Hoseok said, laughing at the state Jimin was in.

"Sorry about that....I was just thinking about the past and the memories I've had and things I've done..." he tried to explian, definitely half wrong and half true.

"Thinking of the past...I guess I'd rather not think about it at all..." she said, as she could see Rins' smiling face in front of her eyes.

Thinking of the times when she used to go to the library and Rin made her study by force. Of the good old days.

Before she even knew it, tears started running uncontrollably down her cheeks and fell on the pages of the book she was holding.

"Are you...okay?" Jimin asked, as he put his hand on the girls shoulder. He was confused but his voice was still so soft.

"Yes..I mean...no..." she answered him, while crying silently, her shoulders going up and down.

"You can tell us if there's a problem...if you want..." Hoseok said, looking at her with a kind smile, which made (Y/N) really feel like he cares for her.

Her lips curled into a sad but real smile, as she wiped her tears with her sleeves.

"Some mothes ago...I lost my bestfriend, which I knew since we were 11 or so, and... every single place, every single action....makes me think of her..."

(Y/N) was tired. Tired of remembering Rin in every moment of her life. Not tired of Rin, but tired of the scenery that flash backed in her mind every time.
Tired of the man with a mask, his hands covered in blood.

"Oh...I'm sorry...having her murdered must feel really terrible...." Hoseok said...looking down at the table.

'Mur...dered?'

"Being sad about her is okay, but you need to move on. I'm sure she doesn't want you like this either...right, (Y/N)?" Jimin had a soft and comforting voice, and his words made her heart hurt.

'He's right...Rin might not want me to spend my whole life by crying....'

"Yeah...you're right..." she smiled softly. (Y/N) wasn't a real definition of 'beautiful'. But she was pretty and nice enough to make the boys heart skip a beat.

'I'm sure she doesn't like the case that I'm spending my days crying over her...I need to move on!'
And by that, she decided to move on and study more often to change her life style into a good and healthy one.

"Thank you guys...you're pretty kind...and nice." She said, wearing a wide smile. A real one.

'I'm sorry....'

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"Today was pretty good, thanks for that!" (Y/N) was happy with her achievement. Let alone that she was sure that she made a friend, she also realized that she should move after all.

"It was great to meet you, (Y/N)." Hoseok said, before they shake hands and Hoseok walked to his car.

"It was so much fun to spend today with you, (Y/N). And explaining the math problems for you, I also know them much better now" Jimin said, and made (Y/N) sure that they both had fun.

"Yeah, I'm really thankful about that. I couldn't even solve one of those without your help." She was thankful of him. Mostly because of that 'comforting' part. But was too shy to thank him for that.

"glad I could help" Jimin smiled.

"It's 5:27. I guess I've gotta go..." now that study was over and they were outside the library, she just wanted to get home quickly.

"Oh. Bye then! See you tomorrow!"

"Yeah. Bye!"

(Y/N) walked away and crossed the street. A productive day was coming to an end, and she was happy to have all her homework done that early.

'Let's get home. I'm gonna cook tonight!'

She was trying to be the one she used to be.

The brown headed knew this wouldn't last long, but still managed to stare at the girls figure, going further away till she wasn't in sight anymore.

"All This just makes me more curious about everything, hyung!"

A/N:

So hey guys! I hope you've been enjoying the story up to now. And yeah the mysteries are starting to form...

_Moonshine