HOW DO I TELL A BOY I WANT TO KISS HIM? | reddie

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December 6, 1993

After his climb into eddies room, Richie had seen less of Eddie and more Conner. Less of all of his friends in fact, his time was most spent with the blonde boy with sapphire eyes.

Richie stared Down a t his lap, he and Conner were at the drive inn. It was a date. Conner seemed antsy. He had been skittish with Richie.
Richie reaches over and intertwined their fingers. He pressed a small kiss to the blondes hand.
"You okay?"
"Richie i...I need to be honest.."
Richie hummed and slowly let go of his hand to face him.
Conner looked up at him "I really like you..we've been hanging out for a month now.."
Richie swallowed. Panic clutching at his heart and pumping through his veins.
"Will you be my-"
Richie panicked. His brain initiated flight or fight. And he got out of the car. As fast as he could and ran. Ran out of the blue car, ran out of the drive inn, and ran home. He was panicking.
He'd call and apologize later, but right now he needed to talk to his sister.

His mom sat up from her spot on the couch the second the door slammed open. Went worth's eyes going wide.
"Where's Juliet?!" Richie panted, breath quickening and eyes filling. "I need her where is she?!"
"Richie honey calm down. Please angel she's upstairs what's wrong?"
Richie ran again, legs aching, lungs burning, he ran two stairs at a time and barged into his sisters room falling to the floor.
He was shaky, hyperventilating.
"Rich are you okay?!" She hopped into action and dropped to console her baby brother.
"He asked me out- Juliet - I- I don't know- I don't know what to do-?! What do I say? do I like him back-?! What will e-" he stopped himself and just sobbed into his sisters shoulder. The panic and anxiety all from the one question crashing through him like a wrecking ball.
"Shhhh, it's okay" Juliet whispered. She ran her fingers through his hair and rubbed his back. The two sitting on her bedroom floor, one crying, the other in some face mask girly thingy with prince playing on her boom box.
"Richie. If you like Conner go for it. If you're worried about your friends talk to them. I miss seeing them around here.." Juliet pulled back to look at his face, using her thumbs to wipe away stray tears.

Richie assures his parents he was okay, and left the house. Taking familiar twists and turns in the dark night that took over Derry.
And he found himself where he was, a month ago.
The small house that belonged to Edward and Sonia kaspbrak. Except tonight, the small window was dark and shut.
Richie knocked on the window hopefully, more panic running in him,
'what if he hates me now? What if-'
"R-Richie?"
He looked up and there was eddie, in Richies old band shirt, looking as perfect as he could.
"Eddie.."
"What are you doing here my mo-"
"Can I come in? Please?"
Eddies eyes softened and he disappeared backwards into the dark room.
The click of a lamp and a bit of rustling later before eddie came back and opened the window fully.
"You're going to catch a cold with no jacket!" Eddie scolded him, assisting him inside.
"Thanks Ed's."
"Eddie."
Richie smiled down to him before looking away.
"I miss you." Eddie blurted. "You disappeared after Friday. What's the trashmouth doing that's so imp-"
"A boy asked me out tonight." Richie interrupted him.
Eddie looked down and nodded. Processing.
"Why are you here then?"
"We're on a date, he tells me he likes me, I run home, and now I'm here because I miss you and I want your opinion." Richie starts rambling.
He's fidgeting. toes tapping on eddies carpet. Picking at his fingers
"Ri-"
"Eddie, the past two months I had the biggest crush on you. And now I know I don't. I like him so much and I'm scared to lose you guys because of it."
Eddie pursed his lips again. He looked down at his bare feet and nodded. He looked up at richie again.
"If you like him. Be with him. I'm not going anywhere." Eddie smiled.
So Richie hugged eddie before he left.!

When Richie was finally ready for bed and in a good mind space he called conner. ApologizeD for running out and agreed to be his boyfriend.
He hung up and smiled.
It felt odd?? Isn't he supposed to be all giddy and happy like in movies??!
Oh well. First boyfriend is a cutie that can kiss: and he really likes him.

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