Melanin

Chapter Twenty-One

Lola Davis

My leg shook uncontrollably as I sat in the doctors office. Tremaine talked me into going and I was curious also. I was so scared that I was sure my leg was moving 10 miles an hour. Tremaine tried to calm me down with rubbing my back.

"It's gone be ok Lola I know it is." He said.

"I'm scared what if I am I mean you and I aren't even together. I just started this career." I started hyperventilating.

"Hey hey breath and look at me." He took my face into his hands.

I looked at him as my breathing slowed down. He kissed my forehead, and pulled me into his chest.

"Hello Ms.Davis I am Dr.Reed." He said.

"Hello." I said.

"So what's the results?" Tremaine asked.

I looked at him like damn straight to the point.

"Well, congratulations you expecting." She said.

It felt like everything was slowing down. I felt like I was going to faint, It was like everything that has happen bad in my life started flashing in my head.

"Hey hey pumpkin calm down." He grabbed my hand.

I breath in and out as he massaged my back. I calmed down and listened to the doctor.

"Just go to the receptionists and schedule your next appointment." He said exiting the room.

I let out a breath and Tremaine wrapped his arms around me

"It's going to be ok nothing will change at all." He said.

"Promise?" I asked.

"I promise." He pecked my forehead.

We set up an appointment and was on our way back to my house. I sat down and Tremaine began rubbing my feet.

"Thank you." I smiled.

"Anything for you." He said.

I smiled and drifted off into my thoughts. I was thinking about the baby if it's a girl I was thinking about a name a different name. Like Arcadia nah I don't know.

"Lola." I heard Tremaine say.

"Hm." I said.

"I'm sorry for everything I did, I should've told you and I should've never hurt you like that." He said.

"Yeah you shouldn't have you've done a lot of damage. I can't even look in the mirror without thinking something's wrong with me. You made me become insecure and you lowered my self esteem. I should've known better though a man like you would never be with someone like me right?" I asked.

"That's not true." He said.

"Then why'd you felt comfortable to step out on me?" I asked.

"I was stupid and I am human I make mistakes BUT FOR THE ONE TIME IN MY LIFE, I DIDN'T NEED TO BE TREY SONGZ AROUND YOU.  I could be myself I could be vulnerable. I don't want you Lola I can have any bitch I want." He said.

"THEN GO TO THEM BITCHES!" I yelled standing up.

"I DON'T WANT THEM BITCHES I WANT YOU! I NEED YOU!" He yelled standing up.

I looked up at him because he was taller.

"DAMN IT DON'T YOU SEE THAT?" He asked.

I never seen Tremaine so upset. I sigh and sat down.

"I'm sorry." He said.

"Me to." I mumbled.

"I just can't lose you, and I fucked up but you don't trust me and I know without trust there's nothing. I want you to trust me and I will wait as long as I have to." He said.

I sigh and laid my head in his lap.

"I still love you Tremaine, and yes it will take time." I said.

He nodded and kissed my forehead. We sat in silence as the tv was playing. I put my hand on my stomach and rubbed it. This baby is for sure a blessing in disguise.

"I have my final show tonight." He said.

I looked up at him and waited for him to finish

"I want to know if you wanna come?" He asked.

"I would love to." I smiled.

He pecked my forehead and smiled.

"Thank you for still putting up with me." He said.

"You're welcome, so are you excited about the baby?" I asked.

"Actually I am, I'm glad you're having my baby." He joked.

I laughed and shook my head.

"I was scared but then I had to process it all. All that matters now is our baby. What do you want?" I asked.

"I want a boy." He said.

"I want a girl." She said.

"Girls are to much to handle." He laughed.

"Yeah but they are adorable." I said.

"Yeah they are." He said.

"Are you scared?" I asked.

"Not really but I'm glad I'm doing it with you." He said looking at me.

I smiled and looked away.

"I want to wait before we announce it." I said.

"Agreed I don't want anyone in our business because I don't want anyone's opinions affecting you or our child." He said.

"Ok." I said.

We chilled and watch tv, until he had to go to sound check. I got up and stretch and decided to do some cleaning. It was 8 o'clock and Tremaine show started at 10 so I needed to start getting ready.

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