Falling the wrong way • Grayson Dolan

Chapter 4 - Confession

Bella Jolie Gomez

What the fuck?

Did Grayson just- did he just kiss me??? Geesh boy hormones must be wild.

I know Grayson doesn't like me.

He just ran out because of how awkward it was. To be fair the proximity we were in just made anything intimate. I guess his hormones just took over or something.

I'll give him some time to calm down, he must be so embarrassed right now.

I shrugged my shoulders and got up. I sat at my desk and started painting. Today I was painting yet another vapor wave inspired one. Vapor waves my favorite aesthetic. It just so fucking cool to me.

Like those colors seem like they wouldnt go together on paper, pink, blue, green, yellow, purple and yet they do. It's weird. I love it.

A few hours had gone by and I finally decided to call Grayson. I put it on speaker and set it down as I continued my painting.

Riiiiing... riiiiiing.... riiiiiiiiing.....

It rang through. I called him again and it rang through again. Huh. I got up and washed the paint off of my hands. I then quickly got ready. I just threw on some leggings and a sweater.

I brushed my hair out then slipped on some shoes. I grabbed my phone and headed out. Ethan and Grayson loved only a short walk away so it wasn't a big deal to walk.

I finally got there and let myself in.

"Oh hey bell." Ethan said while pouring a cup of orange juice, shirtless. It felt like my eyes literally turned to hearts.

"H-hey." I giggled a little.

"What's up?" He put the carton of juice back into the fridge then took a sip of his juice with an eyebrow raised while looking at me.

Jesus was that a hot view "uh-m just here to talk to gray." I said with a smile on and quickly walked away. Why am I so awkward????

I walked up the steps and swung Graysons door open making him flinch.

Grayson Bailey Dolan

I was sitting at the edge of my bed, my face was in my hands as I was deep in thought. When suddenly my door swung open. I flinched and looked of to Bella. She looked amazing.

But I was fucking terrified of talking to her right now. I mean I just kissed her like ten minutes ago.

"It's been a few hours, I've tried calling you, what happened?" She walked in and shut the door.

HOURS??

"I- um..."

"Are you okay?" She walked over and sat next to me, she placed her small hand on my shoulder with a concerned look on.

She doesn't seem as freaked out as I am? Does she like me too???

"Look I know you don't like me, yeah the kiss was weird but we can forget about it." She laughed. Ugh. I can say so much about her laugh.

I sighed and put my face in my hands again. Well, she doesn't like me. Great. Fucking great. I'm such a fuck up. A literal fuck up. What's wrong with me? A girl like Bella could never love me. A girl like Bella would only love Ethan. He may be my twin but he was better than me. I didn't like to admit it but, come on. He's got girls all over him twenty four seven. And I don't really care about them, I care that he has the only girl I want, obsessing over him. And he doesn't even know it! I fucking hate it!

"Grayson what's wro-?"

"Are you blind?! I'm in love with you! That's what's wrong!" I snapped at her without a second thought. Her beautiful chocolate eyes widened and her perfectly plump lips slightly parted, exposing her pearly white teeth.

"What?" She said quietly, obviously in disbelief.

Like always, I wasn't thinking. So I continued. "I'm in fucking love with you Bella! Jesus! Sorry you're too obsessed with my twin brother to fucking notice!" I yelled and got up. "I've been in love with you for years now!! But since your so head-over-fucking-heals for my twin brother why don't you go fucking-" I grabbed her arm and yanked her up making her give me a fearful look "suck his dick!" I swung the door open, pushed her out of it, then slammed it closed before flipping the lock.

Bella Jolie Gomez

It had now been a few days since Grayson had confessed his love for me and kicked me out of his room.

I had mixed emotions about this whole situation.

One one hand I felt bad, I just wanted him to pick the damn phone up and answer my call.

On another hand I felt kinda weird about it. I mean, my bestfriend, whom I've know for forever, loves me. And not in a brotherly sisterly kind of way.

It's currently saturday night and I'm tired of Grayson ignoring me. So, I'm doing the only logical thing a person can do in this situation. I'm breaking into his house.

I quickly got ready in an oversized t shirt and some biker shorts.

I slid my window open carefully so that my parents or brother wouldn't hear and jumped out of it. I slid down the slanted roofing that was on it then climbed my way down the fencing that separated our backyard from our patio. I walked over to the gate, unlocked it then started making my way to his house. As soon as I got there I climbed onto the brick fence that surrounded his backyard. I then jumped onto the slanted roof.

I passed Ethans from then got to Graysons. I as quietly as possible slid his window up and open. I climbed in, almost knocking something off of his desk.

He was asleep on his back, one of his arms was out. Specifically the one on my side.

I put my knee on his bed then laid in his arm which woke him up.

"What the?" He said in his groggy voice. I slid one arm under hi and the other over his chest then connected my hands together.

"I missed you." I whispered.

"Bella. Get out." He tried pushing me away but I snuggled my face into his chest.

"I love you. It may not be the way you want me to but it's the way I do. I'm sorry if that's not enough for you but I just want my bestfriend back. Just because I don't love you that way doesn't mean we can't be friends. Does it?"

"Bella." He sounded hurt. "Please."

"Grayson." I lifted my head up so I could make eye contact. As soon as our eyes met he looked away. "I need you." I set my head on his chest again. "Please."

He reluctantly wrapped his arms around me. Then brought me into a tight hug where we stayed for the next few minutes until we both fell asleep.

I understand how terrible this book is don't worry

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