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Valentine's Day 🌹

So it's Valentine's day.

It's easy to divide people into groups who celebrate it with their S.O or friends, those who drink wine or get drunk as fuck and then some don't genuinely care two fucks.

For me, Valentine's day has always been about my friends. So, I want to thank them and tell you something about them.

Leafpool33 & Princesa_Yoonji : I wanna start with you two. I don't even remember when or where it began. Suddenly I was being rescued from goons by Marvin and his updated weapons system. Even though you've been very busy with school lately Princesa_Yoonji and we haven't been talking much, you're still very important to me. I'm waiting for the moment we'll talk again, I need to know what's been going on with you.

Leafpool33, I'm very grateful for you. You listen to my worries when I need to vent, you make sure to pull The Jimin™ card when I say I'm not pretty. Your snaps cheer me on and make me feel cared for. I'm extremely taken for the fact that you trust me enough to have let me seen your pretty face and talk to me about your struggles and what's going on with about anything. We have some serious catching up to do, but I love you nonetheless. 

Thank you to both of you girls. Numerous adventures and crazy shenanigans. BTS keeps disrespecting us (esp. certain Kim Namjoon) 24/7, but we keep it moving.

Yoongay-G-U-STD, we've been talking for some time now I don't even remember XD It started properly I think when I dm'd you on insta after colorful and frequent commenting on your stories (that are gorgeous plz peeps go read them now). You're one of a kind, when you're writing, trying to English or getting rid of a flea.

You've gotten me inspired to write because of your excitement over even the smallest snippets of my writings. I truly love you, there's never a dull moment with you. Also getting into med school? I'm so so so so proud of you T-T Your advice and care means much to me. Heck, you text me more than your irl friends (your words, not mine). Even though we might not talk much, you're always on my mind.

My other friends aren't on this platform but I'm still grateful for them and I need to meet up with them and have a nice wine and chocolate girls night.

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Ah, time for my favorite person in this world. Now, where do I start? I want you to read this, take a moment to dry your eyes, and then read it again. Ink it in your brain if you please.

It really is crazy how one person can change my life so drastically in such a short period of time. You've been here for me through thick and thin. I had anything happening, the thing with mom and her drinking, or whenever I felt anxious because my parents were yelling at 2am, anything. You'd be there ready to listen. Or send me words and snaps of encouragement with promises of getting a hug the next day or when we met again.

You listen, you care, you love, you talk, you make sure I appreciate myself and watch out for me. I trust your judge of character because I know it really means the person fucked up when your blood boils. You agree with me on things very often. The reason I've always gravitated towards you since we first got to better terms, we would find out is because we're extremely similar in certain aspects and we've been through similar situations. We sense the familiarity if you may.

These last few months have been rough on both of us, there's no way to draw a line of which one of us had it worse. But we never left the other's side. So, I can share the reason on my behalf. I knew this girl for 12 years, the last 3-4 years she was the closest to me, she was my best friend and someone I considered like a sister. I left one thing unsaid and she boiled over. Suddenly she couldn't trust me to trust her and tell her everything. With her decision, I walked out of her life. There was nothing I could've done about it anymore, she did not give me a reason to come back or turn around. So I didn't.