Help

Diary Entry no. 3

  This is terrible. Im dying and nobody knows. Probably cause im not important and will never find me because of this douche. Im willing to do anything than be in this shit hole. I feel alone. Yeah, i know, many other people have it worse than me. But this is still bad. I just have this feeling of suiciding right now, but i cant lose hope. Not like this. My kidnapper hasnt given me any food, 'cause im "fat". Im really hungry, i think hes making me anorexic. Ive been cutting more than usual. Probably cause he forces me to do it and i cant stop. Its like a drug. Once you get addicted, there's no going back. If you are reading this. Im sorry if im putting you through pain, but this is just what im going through. I wonder whats in store for me in the future. Am i going to be dead by then? Am i going to be happy? Right now is not a happy part. It is actually really crazy how he actually bought me this diary. But i dont care. I dont have bounderies of how far i would go to kill him. To defend myself. I just hope somebody is going to feel the pain im going through and hopefully rescue me.