Poems and Riddles

I'm feeling sick

(I haven't slept for 15 hrs and my sleeping schedule is out of whack)
19 January 2020 7:20 am

Head beating fast
I mean
Heart beating fast, head pounding.
I feel sick but also dying

I'm very livid but also calm
Lying in bed tossing and turning
I want to vomit but also not
Trying not rid of something I'm holding

My turning stomach
I mean
My stomach churning, breathes slow
I feel awake and also living

I'm very alive but also not
Staying still by the little noises I'm hearing
I want to get up but also move
Giving up by that thought, I'm staying

Shut refused eyes
I mean
My eyes heavy, refused to shut
My mind is energetic which my body is not

I'm scared, what will happen to my body
Surely I'll be fine, just like everybody
I need sleep, I need no small noises
Get rid of these please, I hated these noise.

Paranoia is an old friend, which I rather not acquainted to.
Sleep is a dear friend, which I taking for granted so.

You know it's too late, so...
I'm regretting what I've got into.

After fixing my sleep (sort of) and rereading, I refuse to edit since I want to know if I'm that capable to right a poem. And this is the result.