In love with a hero

VI

Kirishima walked up to Bakugo after school as they walked out of class. He grabbed his wrist and pulled him to the locker room. Kirishima opened the door pushing Bakugo inside making him fall to the ground before walking in and shutting the door behind him.
"What the hell shitty hair!?" Bakugo yelled questioningly, standing up.
  "We need to talk about yesterday after school," Kirishima told him. Bakugo raised a eyebrow.
  "Yeah, there's a lot to talk about from what happened yesterday," Bakugo told him leaning up against a locker. Kirishima sat down on the bench that was in front of him. "What the hell was the whole thing of pinning me against the wall? That was totally unnecessary."
  "I'm sorry Bakugo. I should probably tell you what's going on with me, the truth this time," Kirishima told him.
  "Yeah that be fucking great if you would," Bakugo told him crossing his arms. Kirishima looked up at him. 
   "I told you some of my past, how about I tell you the rest and the effects from it," Kirishima told him. "And you can't tell anyone."
  "Not like I want to tell anyone but sure, if it helps me understand you better and it explains why your like this," Bakugo told him. Kirishima sighed. He will basically be then first person he actually told about his whole back story. He was scared how Bakugo would react.
   "Ok, well ever since well before I was actually born my father hated me. He didn't want me. I never really knew why nor do I really want to know but he would call me names and hurt me. He hurt my mother who tried to protect me. He drove my mother insane till she killed herself by hanging herself on the ceiling fan when I got home from school in the sixth grade. His abuse got a ton times worse. He started to come home drunk and hit me and force me to things. I'd go to school with bruises or cuts. I got more bruises from bullies that I had since kindergarten. Around seventh grade I dropped out of school and my dad died not long after. Because of all of the abuse and building I have a lot of mental problems. I have PTSD, a post traumatic stress disorder. I have Schizophrenia, which makes me experience hallucinations, delusions, and hear voices. Borderline personality disorder (BPD), which is a mental condition in which makes me have long-term patterns of unstable or turbulent emotions which can be hard to deal with also I have a personality disorder which causes me to go into different persona's. And because I'm not getting any professional help they get worse every day. But the reason I change before going home and stuff is because I leave in a bad place in town," Kirishima told him.
Bakugo was in shock that he had so many problems and that he had such a horrible childhood. "Your life is so fucked up," Bakugo told him. Kirishima chuckled some.
"Yeah, but I home this explains why I've been acting so weird," Kirishima told him.
"That actually explains a lot on why you act the way you do but why don't you get help?" Bakugo asked.
"I'm fine, besides me feeling lonely all the time and not feeling like I get enough attention," Kirishima told him looking at his lap. "But I get over that. Big sis plays with me!" He said very childish, like he switched personalities. "We school hang out and play with each other! We can play lots of games!" Kirishima said with a huge smile like he was ten. Bakugo could see the personality disorder now.
"Well, you'll have you ask you big sis," Bakugo told him.
"I can call her," Kirishima said. He crossed his legs on the bench and took his phone out and called Toga. "Big sis! Can I hang out with my friend?" Kirishima asked her.
"Oh, Kiri! It's nice to be able to hear you! Of course you can hang out with your friend just be home by dinner," toga told him bowing he's in his child state of mind right now by the nick name.
"Ok, bye big sis!" Kirishima said excitedly with a big smile. Bakugo was going to have to get used to this but he found it a bit cute but it's not like he's going to tell anyone about this.
"Ok, bye," Toga said before hanging up. Kirishima put his phone back in his pocket and looked at Bakugo. But then he blushed and hid his face in his hands embarrassed. Bakugo held back a laugh.
"Please don't tell anyone you saw me like that. It was so unmanly,"'Kirishima told him embraced.
"Yeah sure, but was that your personality disorder?" Bakugo asked him.
"Yeah. I can tell you more about it as we hang out," Kirishima told him.
"Ok, then come on," Bakugo told him. Kirishima stood up. The two walked out of the locker room and headed out of the school.
As they walked along the sidewalk they stayed quiet. "Can you remember anything that happens well you were in your other persona's?" Bakugo asked him.
"Um yeah. Some of them. I only have like five or six I think. The one I'm as right now the child one, my smart one and my flirt. I can never remember my beast one and I'd Rather not anyways," Kirishima told him.
"What do you mean by 'this one'?" Bakugo asked.
"This isn't the real me," Kirishima told him.
"So this isn't the real you?" Bakugo asked him.
"Yeah. The real me is in a fucked up state. That's the one that shows the more systems of the other disorders and he's a bit psychotic and the people that look after me don't like him very much," Kirishima told him.
"Oh," Bakugo said not really knowing what to say. Do you like him?" Bakugo finally asked.
"No. none of us like him, well can't stand him. He's always doing something that deals with death or he's losing his mind. He is always complaining about the voice's making him do things and he's always imagining things are there or he's getting really bad flashbacks. So it's really hard to deal with him," Kirishima told him.
"So the real one is the one with the most problems?" Bakugo questioned.
"Yeah. he needs server help. I tell him all the time to get help or find someone that can keep you at least sane but he's always like "there's no one in this world that will ever love me" and I'm always telling him that there's always a special person for everyone but he never believes me," Kirishima told him. Bakugo looked at the ground. He can't help but feel sorry for him. To go through that much and not have anyone there for you is just horrible and cruel.
"Do you have anyone that helps you or keeps him sane?" Bakugo asked him.
"Well, yeah, we try and help him but he never listens and the people that I live with try to help as much as they can without him acting up and he excaliy finds someone to keep him sane if he likes to live in the shadows," Kirishima told him.
"Well, since you have multiple personalities do you have different names for them?" Bakugo asked.
"Yeah. We have nicknames for all of us. I just go by my last name, Kirishima. The kid goes by Kiri, my flirt likes to go by Ei, my beast we just call Beast, the smart one (more like a smartass) is called the brains and the real one goes by Eijiro or Riot," Kirishima told him.
"So you showed me Kiri and Kirishima already right?" Bakugo questioned, trying to understand his disorder.
"Yep. You also meant Eijiro some when we fought yesterday at the sports festival," Kirishima told him
"So he was the one trying to kill?" Bakugo asked.
"Yeah. he likes to fight strong people, he's also the one that tried to come out when I was fighting Tetsutetsu," Kirishima told him.
"That's why you started to fritz out. You were fighting him off," Bakugo said.
"Yeah. He'd cause more trouble if he was let out but i tried my hardest to hold him back will going against you, He would have killed you if you didn't push him off," Kirishima told him.
"I could tell. He had blood lust in his eyes as he attacked me. It was like he was fighting as in it Kill or be killed," Bakugo told him.
"Well that's how he's raised. Dad would always tell us that we kill or will get killed. I always thought that was stupid but he didn't that's also were the beast comes from. He's a form of all his anger and frustrations from when he was young," Kirishima told him. "Yeah and to think he was a caring and shy kid." Bakugo gave Kirishima a weird look. "What the hell Ei, I was talking," Kirishima said. "I'm sorry I wanted to voice my thoughts," Ei said. Kirishima looks at Bakugo. "Well now you meet Ei again. You met him before in the locker room yesterday," Kirishima told him.
"Yeah, but what did he mean by that he used to be caring and shy?" Bakugo asked.
"Well, Eijiro was a very shy kid. He was always scared to talk back to people and even talk to them in general. He didn't have friends and he was always alone. He would always do what anyone told him to do and he always helped people out if he could, but that changed when our mother died. He became more mean and rude to others. He would start standing up for himself but that always got him beat up. It's sad, really," Ei said, a bit disappointed, shaking his head some.
"So 'Eijiro' is now different after his dad died or something?" Bakugo asked.
"You could say that. The day he snapped at his dad he ran away and started to live with some other people. He's dad died a few days later," Ei told him. "But he changed the day he snapped at his dad. Everything hit him all at once and it drove him insane."
Bakugo honestly couldn't believe what had happened to them. They have been through so much and it's making them go insane. He couldn't help but think about deku and how he could have turned out if his mind wasn't so sat up on being a hero. He could have turned out like them from all of his torture. He started to understand why Kirishima got mad at him for what he did to Deku.
"So he's not getting any better, but worse right?" Bakugo asked him. He felt guilty for what he did to Deku but it's not like he can fix it anyways.
"Yeah, he's way worse now and he's too stubborn to get help or let anyone help him," Ei told him. "Why? You starting to regret how you treated Midoriya?" Ei said getting close to his face. Bakugo put a hand on Ei's face and pushed him away.
"That's not it dumbass," Bakugo told him.
"Then what is it? A strong and handsome guy like you can't possibly know how it feels not to be wanted or is this all an act that you put up?" Ei told him in a questioning but flirty way. Bakugo didn't know what to say. He looked around to see they were in his neighborhood. Ei looked around too. "Hey do you know where we are?" he asked.
"Yeah, were in my neighborhood," bakugo told him. Ei smirked.
"Hey, let's go to your house," Ei told him. "Kiri still wants to play games." Bakugo sighed.
"Whatever. Were still talking anyways," Bakugo told him, starting his way to his house. Ei followed.
"So you going to answer me?" Ei asked.
"It's none of your business," Bakugo rudely told him.
"Hey I told you my whole back story you can at least open up to me," Kirishima told him. Bakugo sighed.
"Fine, I really didn't have any actual friends. They were more of followers and it's been like that my whole life. Well, Deku was actually one of my actual friends but I pushed him away, But it's not like I can fix what I broke and even if I could I don't know how to," Bakugo told him.
"You can always fix stuff like that you just have to want it and put effort into it," Kirishima told him. "And Ei has a point, putting up a front is not a good thing. It can become the real you if you let it curpet you."
"I'm not putting up a front!" Bakugo yelled at him.
"If you say so, but were you always like this?" Kirishima asked him. Bakugo thought about his question. No he wasn't always a asshole. He was actually way nicer before he got his quirk, be he was still a dick.
   "Not like it cares. Let's just get to my house," Bakugo told him. Kirishima nodded.