TINDER 🔅 YOONMIN

40.

A few days went by after my encounter at work with yoongi, and I must say, I had taken things rather chill. I was awfully calm about the fact that Yoongi had given me a hand job and ran off afterwards. We haven't text each other since Saturday, and considering it was already Thursday and I didn't freak out, meant the world.

I still had no idea why Yoongi reacted like that but maybe it's for the best. My mom used to say that it's better to have no expectations than high ones, because reality can always surpass no expectations.

That's what she said before she got hit by a truck.

I surely didn't expect that!

It happened a long time ago, I was 7 I think? So I don't really remember how it's like to have a mom. Others really pitty me for that, but you know, you can't miss what you can't remember am I right?

After my mom passed away, my stepdad was too poor to take me in, so they dropped me with my rich, biological father. He had left my mom for another woman who had a couple of young children with him. Me arriving at his new family was of course not something he had planned, so they didn't really welcomed me friendly. Its not like they treated me like Cinderella, but they did neglect me a bit I guess. I got my own apartment with a kitchen, a bathroom, a bedroom and a salon in their mansion. They send maids to cook, clean and homeschool me while they ate happily together.

I could live with that at first, but after a couple of years, I got very lonely. I only saw my dad once per 3 months and my stepmother didn't like when I played with her children. She didn't say it, but it was so obvious: she put them always early in bed when I was there or took em suddenly to go shopping and she never let me tag along.

I felt left out, so I stopped forcing myself on them and just accepted that I was alone. I didn't leave my chambers very often so I got kind of depressed and mistreated myself. I stopped eating properly, didn't sleep a lot, and didn't put any effort in school. When I reached 11,  I ran away, partly because I wanted to run from the loneliness and partly I wanted my dad to show that he really was concerned about me and wanted me to be safe, but after 3 months living on the streets and no one sparing me a glance, I gave up.

That kind of broke me.

I didn't stay alone for a long time tho. I met Jin hyung and from then things were starting to get better. He and his mom took me in, made sure I got to school and ate. I met Taehyung and I felt present again. I smiled more, ate more and lived more. After being invisible for so long, I felt like I finally got the opportunity to be somebody. 

Jins mom of course reported me to the police, she didn't tell me at that time because it was was a sensitive subject, but as soon as I turned 18, she ripped the bandaid off and told me what happened at that time.

The police told her that no child was currently missing, what shattered my heart even more. However, she took a photo of me and went around town and asked every person whether they knew me or not and like that she met my dad. He said he was sorry for the inconvenience I had caused her and offered to pay rent for me there. She obviously refused but let him shove it into account which became accessible for me when I turned 18.

And boy I was rich.

I tried to repay Jins mom for the amount of money she put into me but she would never accept it, so I tried and still try to repay her by doing chores, cook, clean and wash our clothes.

Maybe that's the reason I'm so chill with Yoongi. What happened Saturday really exceeded my expectations but that didn't mean it was okay to neglect me!

I mean, if Yoongi was a decent person he obviously should've send a message or something?

Hmm.

I maybe wasn't that okay with it.

"Jimin? Snap out of it" Taehyung clipped his fingers in front of me. "It's lunch break and its Thursday aka pizza day, so we have to get there before they're out of pizza!" I sighted and grabbed my books.

I really need to start focussing again on school.

Haha, not gonna happen.