I'm Inlove with my bestfriend

Chapter 7

Eanna's P.O.V.

It hurts me so much every time I see Gian and Tanya acting so sweet  towards each other.

I get jealous.

Which is why I try making him jealous by Being sweet towards Jaoquin like what Gian does with Tanya.

I know yesterday Gian is making me jealous.

But I am not minding it.

All he knows is I am not jealous because I don't mind the sweet things he is doing to Tanya.

But, deep inside.....I AM HURT.

REALLY HURT.

I just let 3:30 pass (My dismissal time) so I can cry out loud.

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It's 3:30 already.

I texted my sister to fetch me.

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She fetch me after 10 minutes I texted her.

While I am in the car I can't hold my tears anymore.

Even though I wipe it, my tear goes out unexpectedly.

My sister notice it.

"Eanna, I know you have a problem. Tell me, or else you'll be more depressed."

After the word "depressed" I cannot hold my tears, that's why I just let my tears go out.

My sister tap my back, " Sister, I know it's a love problem. Please tell me, I am your sister. Is that why you are pale and your eyebugs are growing because of love?"

"Because since Gian and I were 13, I like him already but because I am sheepish I didn't tell him my feelings, and because maybe if I tell him the truth maybe he will stay away from me because I know he don't like me." I said with nonstop tears going out of my eyes.

"I knew it. You like him. You know Eanna, I can notice it a bit."

As my sister drive going in our house we are talking about Gian.

When we are near our house, I look at myself.

I wipe my tears and fix myself so mom and dad won't notice that I cried.

When I reach my noise-proof room. That's the time I breakdown.

Many tears went out my big eyes.

Just because of one guy I am reacting like this.

Just because of love I am depressed like this.

I feel like cutting my wrist.

But no, I am not too dumb to do that.

I should be strong.

I have a habit that when I am sad I play a music that is related to my problem again and again.

I played the song "BREAKFREE."

Even if it does not relate my problem I played it.

'Cause there is a line there "I'm stronger than I've been before."

I should be stronger.

Actually, I should move on already because I know Gian doesn't like me at all.

He just see me as his BESTFRIEND.

No more "More than best friends" stage.

I will try to move on.

I will try to remove my feelings for Gian.

I'll just focus to Joaquin.

He is courting me already.

I can see in him a boyfriend-material.

Tho, Gian is a boyfriend-material guy, but as what I have said.

WE WON'T BE BOYFRIENDS AND GIRLFRIENDS.

That is what you put in your brain Eanna.

Just focus to Joaquin.

Try to move on.