Deception (Book 1)

8:DEAD BUT ALIVE

I found my self standing in the living room of my old house.......how did I get here.....I asked my self .i looked at my self as well  noticing something odd......when did I get dressed up in this cloths....I was wearing a white  T-shirt with a jacket that went with it and a white jean other than the underwear i wore in my bathroom......my bathroom.....,my eyes grew wide and I raised both of my hands to look at both of  my wrist where I had cut  when I sat down in the tub........am i dead ?.....I asked my self feeling a form of satisfaction and sadness at the same time.

I began to hear loud foot steps coming from upstairs as some one walked towards the stairs cases I glanced up turning my head to the left  to see who it was while my hands hung in the air in the same position.
My eyes grew wider as my heart began to speed up, I was overwhelmed with the site of the figure coming down the  stairs "mom" I called out, a smile appeared on her face  as she finally came to stop at the last step, she was putting on a navy blue garment, her hair curled up and tied into a pony tail ,she was a red head. tears filled my eyes as I walked toward her  "mom" I called out again coming to a stop in front of her ,before I know it I was rapped in an embrace as the tears began to fall down my Cheeks's...."shhhhhh its alright I have missed you as well" she said while rubbing cycles on my back "I missed you a lot" I said  with my head place on her shoulders tears coming down my face and sob's escaping my mouth..." I know " she said still holding me in an embrace "but we both know your not supposed to be here" she spoke sounding hurt and pulled away from me, both of her hand held my upper arm as she looked straight into my eyes with sympathy and concern.

I lowered my eyes to look at the floor but she put her hand out to hold my chin firmly causing my head to stay up "you're not a burden to any one chaice " she said releasing my chin and using the palm of that hand to whip the tearss that where on my chicks  as I looked into her eyes " non of everything that happened was your fault " she said with a convincing toon "but — " she cut me of placing one of her hand to cover my mouth...."no buts " she said while shaking her head on form of a "no" then dropped her hand from my mouth "your father loves and cares about you " her words caused me to look away "No body cares about me " she smiled at my words " what about Anna, she cares about you " I turned my face to look back at her " don't give me that look chaice ,we both know she does " she said with a smile,
" I don't " I said "no one cares about me apart from dad who tries his best " she raised an eyebrow at my statement and stepped away " come with me " she said walking toward the kitchen door which I followed behind " where are going " I asked "to the present " she spoke with a look that I can't picture ,I on the other hand looked so confused by her statement.

She opened the kitchen door and I was surprised on what was at the other side.

It was my school hallway, we both stepped in and I saw Anna learning against a locker with her head pressed to it ,she looked sad and pale ,she raised her head from the locker and opened it, she put some books in it and grabbed  some from the locker and closed it, she turned to face us, her eyes looked swollen from crying "she can't see us " my mom pointed out "neither can she ear us cause we are both dead" she completed making me to turn to face her but my eyes where on Anna "well am dead but your at the edge of life and death " she spoke again facing me this time  "come on let's go " she spoke turning to walk away I wanted to follow but then Anna came to a stop in front  of me I just looked at her she looked frightened and scared as she took little steps back "chaice " she called out my name I turned to face my mom who was behind me "I though you said she can't see us  ?" I asked  "she can't but she feels your presence" I looked back at Anna " chaice" she said turning her head to look around her "whose there" she called out this time looking completely frightened "Anna" I called her name "she can't ear you chaice " my mom remembered me "come with me " she said once again.

I turned to  follow taking some steps forward the turned my head to look at Anna who looked like she was about to explode,I looked at her for a moment then walked to where my mom was standing "come on " she said opening another door to reveale a hospital room, we stepped in and looking into the room I saw my dad seating on a seat facing the bed with both of his palms holding his head up....he was quiet asleep in that position, I looked at the bed from the position was standing to see my self laying down on the bed ,with different machines connected to my body while I was unconscious . I felt sad for a moment "how do you think your father feels seeing you like this chaice ?" my mom asked me and within a minute I suddenly realized that I was a bad person.

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