Deception (Book 1)

9:RETURN

standing next to the bed my body was laying unconscious, i closed my eyes as my moms words kept on passing back and fort in my head....am i really that much of a bad person.....i asked my self causing me to turn my head to face my mom, she just stared at me with a blank expression, "mom" i called out with a low toon close to tears, "am i a bad person ? ", i asked cause i needed to know "you can choose to be and you can choose not to be " she said while walking to come stand next to me , i turned to look at myself again laying on the bed. I slowly back away from the bed nodding my head as a sign of no "i don't want to go back " i said and turned to face her "am not going back" i spoke with confidence my mom on the other hand looked surprised by my words "is that what you really want ?" , she asked "you know at times chaice you have to loose something to gain something while there are other times you need to think about how others feel." she swallowed the lump that had built in her throat while raising her hands to cross them above her chest before she continued "being dead is not as fun as you think Chaice " i rolled my eyes "how hard can it really be " i asked in a mocking toon "how hard can it be ?" She asked with a disappointed look on your face "how hard can it be ??" She asked again but this time in an angry toon and walked to stand next to my dad and pointed a finger to him while facing me "do you think your father enjoys seeing you like this ? " she asked again angrily ," do you think any good father would be happy to watch his son die before his own eyes ?? ", her voice began to fade away as her throat began to become sour from the tears she was holding back, " if I had a chance to live again that day do you really think I would had turned it down ?? " ,she continued "do you really think I wanted to die ?? ", she said that part holding her finger up to point at her self, and her tears didn't waste any time before it came rolling down her chicks.

I looked away from her trying not to look at the pain in her eyes, she was turn apart by my words,but all I said was the truth I didn't want to go back. I was tired of being rejected so often being treated like trash amongst my mates in school, at time there where days when i even got bullied in the school toilet, I didn't want to go back cause I don't want to experience all does hurtful events again,i have had enough of what i have been through.

"life has a lot more to offer chaice " she said dabbing off are tears, "even if you don't want to live for any one, you can at least try to live for me " I turned to look into her eyes and the whole truth was hidden there " there's some one out there in this world you hate so much that is ready to accept you for who are " her words caused me to think about just one person.....ANNA...I turned my head again to look at the bed "you have a choice to live or die and trust me when I tell you this" she walked forward to stand close to me "no one can make that decision for you " she finished, I wanted to open my mouth to say something then the door to my hospital room swung opened causing me to look at the door way.

Anna walked in carefully caring her school bag on her left shoulder, she walked slowly trying hard not to make any sounds with her foot steps so she wouldn't wake my dad up. She walked up to my bed and sat at the edge, looking at my unconscious body, she dropped her bag to the floor close to the bed then adjusted her self to seat comfortably before speaking "how are you today ? " she asked "hope your getting better now ?" she asked again but this time wearing a sad face, I and my mom turned to look at each other then we turned to face Anna, "sam and Sarah has been asking of you lately " she said "they miss you " she completed "I on the other hand miss you " she said grabbing onto my hands, opening it to reveal my palm to draw small cycles in them using her fingers " its wired right ?" she asked "I know you for like just 2 days and I feel like i have known you all my life even if it doesn't really make any sense" she said pushing her lips up to smile, at this point my dad was awake and looking at her but she had not noticed it, "yea I know its crazy" she raised one of her hands to her face and used it to pushed away the hair that where covering her forehead and tugged them behind her ears "God I cant believe am talking to my self right now, i don't even know what am doing in your room, am not even supposed to be here" she said in a low toon "you know I was in school today and----" she trailed of intertwining her fingers to play with them, am not going to lie she looks cute while doing it "okay first of am not crazy okay but I kind of felt like you where hanging around me, i know it sound off key but I felt your presence " she completed "okay this is just crazy" she finally said to her self and gestured to stand up when my father spoke up "its not crazy anna nor are you crazy " she jumped unto her feet in shock panting hard as she turned to face my dad who was already on his feet and walking towards the bed " I also had that feeling as well not to long ago when I woke up " he told her , she began to calm down as there both stood in silence looking at me laying on the bed ,they both held worried looks on there faces, about a minute passed and anna cut into the silence by suggested to my dad that they should both go and listen to what the doctors would say about my current situation and with that Anna grabbed her bag from the floor where she had dropped it earlier, then they both walked out of my hospital room closing the door behind them.

"you see chaice " my mom said "every one has something to live for" she said again "you might not understand the pain I go through over here but I am pretty sure am correct when I say you understand the pain your putting every one through" and with that she took a step back " you couled either choose to go back to them or you could choose to remain here with me" she spoke taking another step back to stand and wait for my decision.

At this point I had two options, I could either die and stay with her or return to the land of the living to go stay with my dad and my friends, I didn't want to loose my mom again at one hand but on the other hand I didn't want to loose does who have come to realize love and care about me and accept me for who I am.

my head kept moving back and fort turning to look between my body and my mom debating on what I should do and that was when realization hit me, I might not have being living my best life for sure before I came to New York but it was different over here, life was different here and even if I wanted to die at this point it was all up to me at this point and some how I didn't want to live either but it would be a waste especially when i come to think about the feelings i have for Anna.

I then opend my mouth to speak after i made my decision "no mom" I said out load rubbing my palm at on the back of my neck she looked at me with a confused expression "I think I want to go back "with that out of my mouth a big smile appeared on my moms lips, she just nodding and took another step back and then as she began to fade away into tin air slowly.

I turned to look at my body and walked close to it, then sat on the bed slowly, seating upright first i witnessed my spiritual legs meg with my physical one. i then sight with a loud breath as i sat down in my body for a moment thinking if i had made the right decision or not then i laid down into my body and felt my spirit meg with my unconscious body.

********************I tried hard to make this chapter okay for you guys hopes it enough for lighten up your day