Betrayed

~5~

That was it. I woke up the next day. No bruises no nothing. Why?

"Matt I need to talk to you for a minuet." I say 

"Sure my love, whats the matter?"

Matt's POV

I can't tell her. Through all the strength in my body I can't gather it and force myself to tell the love of my life that something is seriously wrong.

"Sit down please." Safya asks me as she sits on the couch where we sat last night.  "Is there something wrong with me. And don't lie to me. I can handle the truth just tell me."

"Honey nothing is wrong with you, why would you ask that?"

"I just go to bed having the worst night and I wake up competley fine, like nothing ever happened. Why is that Matt? Safya asks me and I know I shouldn't lie to her but it's for her own good. At least I think it is. "Answer me Matt! Why do I do that! How can I remember the night before but when I wake up nobody else does. Its like all the bad things are just in my head! You are supposed to be my Fiance, that doesn't just give you the right to lie to me anytime you want to!" Saf says trying to catch her breath from talking so quick. I can see the tears start to form in her eyes but what am I supposed to do. I swore we would never relive what happened and I would take the blame for everything. "DON'T YOU LIE TO ME MATT!" 

"OKAY STOP YELLING AT ME!" I say. I know I shouldn't keep this but I had to, for her own good.

"Look Saf, there's something about yourself that you don't know, but I was told not to tell you out of fear for how you would react." I say being very hesitant towards what I was saying.

"Just tell me, please. I'm tired of living in the dark of my own life." She is begging me now. I feel like I have to tell her. I know its bad but we have to have this talk sooner or later.

"Look Safya, this is going to be a lot to take in and after everything I'm sure you won't trust me and I don't blame you for that. I have lied to you about this for so long because I was scared of how you would react."  I say taking a deep breath before continuing. "None of that stuff was real. Last night wasn't real. You never went to your brothers. He never came here, and we never fought."

"What do you mean that never happened? I say it happen." 

"No Saf, you didn't. You had trauma when you were younger that scared you ever since. Your dad used to abuse you until one day Ty came in and tried to help you. So your dad beat him instead of you that night. I took you away from your dad ever since then. Your dad used to beat your mom too, that's why you said Ty told you your mom was dead last night. Your dad killed her 7 years ago. You came home from school and she wasn't resopnsive. She had foam coming out of her mouth and died from and ovedose your dad caused. I don't expect you to believe me about this but there is more to the story if you want me to continue."

"That makes sense actually. I can't think of a time you ever lied to me, but why do I have dreams of everyone else hurting me?" She asks

"Because your dad hurt you so bad that the memories haunt you. Every time you fall asleep you dream about the people you have now hurting you like he did. Yes I was a drunk but once these flashbacks started coming up and the doctor told me about them I knew I had to stop for you so that was when I proposed. I knew I couldn't live without you but I let you sit and suffer as I lied to you about the demons that haunt you and without addressing that problem they could haunt you forever and I can't watch you suffer like that." I say finally turning my eyes away from her soft gaze. I can see she is scared. Torn between believing me or not. 

"Like I said I don't expect you to believe me but I still want you to trust me. I only lied to you because I thought it was better but I guess I was wrong. I'm so sorry Safya. I should have to---"

"Stop. Just stop talking okay! I can't take all of this in at once. I don't know what is real and what is a lie. I don't know who to believe after everything that has happened I just need some time to myself." She says standing up walking towards our room.

"I'm going out of town for a few days. I need time to think about everything." She says shutting the door to our bedroom. I get up and walk towards the door. I try to open it but it's locked.

Safya's POV

"Don't open that door!" I say. I can't process this. There is to much going on right now. If this man truly loves me I don't understand why he would lie to me.

"Baby please. I wanted to tell you I swear but I was scared this would happen. I was scared the one good thing in my life would leave me. Please don't leave, we can talk about this. Safya please!" Matt yells but I have no intention to listen to him. I want to get out of here as soon as possible. 

I finish packing my bag and grab my keys. I unlock the door and Matt is on the floor crying, just waiting on me to open it. I don't flinch though, at this point I don't care. I slowly take my wedding ring off my finger and drop it in his lap.

"I'm leaving, I'm sure I'll see you around. Eventually." I say as I walk out the door shutting it behind me. This is it.