Unintended Love (BJYX Fanfic) - Completed

17: The Dream

Xiao Zhan silently lead the way whereas Wang Yi Bo patiently waited, heart full and giddy within his rib cage. He was too euphoric to even notice the gazes of people they've passed by.

He is not unfamous, anyway. He had previously modeled and became a hot topic for sports magazines, and Jennie Liu (his pretend girlfriend) doesn't forget to brag to the world about him as well. And to see him in a wheelchair? Well, it is something worth posting on social media. #PrayforYiBosrecovery

But he doesn't own the spotlight alone. Xiao Zhan in his sophisticated neat grey suit and white shirt is also eye-catching. His gentle demeanor and unfading slight smile can swoon anyone at any age. Thus, he becomes another hot topic . #WhoswithYiBo

And both of them, won the trend #HospitalHeartthrobs

But none of them cared about their surroundings, the stares or the murmurs. They only have one goal, and that is, to suffice Yi Bo's boredom.

After a while, they've reached the rooftop and everything went quiet and peaceful. The sky, dark but clear; the stars, bright in the distance.

Yi Bo, inhaled the cold breeze, savoring the chills, feeling alive.

He looked up the sky, but something up above him was more capturing than the bright lights.

It is no other than, Xiao Zhan.

"Beautiful!" Zhan exhaled in amazement, looking far ahead in the luminous city.

"Very. Pretty. Indeed."

A small smile escaped Yi Bo's lips as he stared at him. But there was a hint of regret and sadness in those thin lips.

He missed this.

He missed seeing him.

He missed being with him.

'3 years' he thought.

It was a long wait, but he had waited patiently, not knowing whether their fate will cross again or not.

He knew he strived hard to forget his feelings, as he thought it was best for them both. Zhan disappeared and had lost in touch. Whereas, Yi Bo tried to piece his shit together, finding flings from side to side, breaking other's hearts to find his own broken one. But never in anyone and in anyway did he felt the same way like when he was with Zhan.

'It is too late now, isn't it?' he tirelessly asked himself every single day he wakes up from his bed and saw Zhan's farewell gift, a painting wishing his dream to come true.

Thus, he made it his goal to seek for that dream Zhan was talking about. He let out his frustration by trying new things, until he came upon speed racing. The angst, the blur as he burst up the metre, the crowds' aimless cheers, the scrapes and accidents he received, the wins and defeats, 'No fear. No regrets.' became his career motto. He focused on this dream and career. His life revolved all around it.

Every freaking morning, is a race he wanted to finish. But in all those 3 years, he knew, without Xiao Zhan, he could never win his heart's race. Because he can't deceive himself, Xiao Zhan is still the real and only one...

his dream.

Fame, career, his life's direction weren't the one that matters the most.

It is Xiao Zhan.

The one he has lost.

When they met again, he couldn't run to him. He couldn't say Hello or even say his name. He curse himself every single time they meet, when he ends up being cold, distant, and an asshole.

Yet, everytime he sees Zhan's smile, his knees go weak, his mind goes blank, his heart spontaneously race for him.

But he knew, they couldn't bring back the old times. Because all the good memories they once had, were now clouded and bears them pain.

When one confessed, the other was afraid, leading to both their heartbreaks.

He was too immature, narrow-minded and coward then. This time, he wanted to make it right. Therefore, he decided to make all these regrets and fears disappear.

He took a courageous leap and stretched his arm pointing at the sky.

"I've always thought I was chasing my dreams. But I've realized, that racing is not my real dream." Zhan looked down at Yi Bo, confused of his words.

Yi Bo smiled, sadness, hope and longing mixed in his eyes, his back hand touched Zhan's cheek uttering as he caressed his face, "It is this. Like this. Right now. With you."

Zhan was left speechless. Confusion and denial apparent in his face. He couldn't believe his words. He couldn't allow himself to believe in those words.

It's because the confession brought back memories of the past. The heartaches, the loneliness and the rejection.

His shaking hand moved Yi Bo's hand away from his face. His lips trembled but did not say anything. His heart was breaking, yet again, but silently he endured.

Yi Bo stood up from the chair, seeing Zhan's disheaveled expression. He carelessly wobbled as he approached him but Zhan was in a daze, deep in thought. Looking afraid and lost. Yi Bo grasped both of Zhan's arms, asking in an almost pleading way, "Zhan-ge, I was wrong. Can we start again?"

But things aren't easy as that. The past memories hunts Xiao Zhan and makes it impossible to start again.

In the last 3 years, he had thrived to move on.

For 3 years, he had lived without the thoughts of Yi Bo.

He came back, knowing the feelings he held for Yi Bo has all been buried deep together with the past. There was nothing left of him, even a tiny hope of amending the friendship they've lost.

He was just being nice to him, just like what he would normally do for others. 'Isn't it?' Zhan asked himself, making himself believe.

"Zhan-ge..." Yi Bo started again, but Zhan interrupted him, removing Yi Bo's hands on his arms.

"Yi Bo, do not misunderstand." He firmly said, his usual gentleness gone. It was now Yi Bo's turn to gawk at him with disbelief.

"It's been too long ago. Please, just let the past go." Zhan determinedly pleaded.

"Let it go?" Yi Bo involuntarily staggered back, understanding his confession had pushed Zhan further away instead of closer.

A smirk formed in his face while his eyes dropped, chuckling bitterly to himself, 'I've ruined it again.'

"It's late now. We should head back." Zhan suggested seeing Yi Bo's emotional turmoil drastically out pouring without reserve.

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Author's note:

Okay. Let it be. 🙄

31-Jan-2020 E:17-Feb-2020