Today I realized something. I think I like Mason! I'm a little worried. He's the first friend I've had whose a boy. I don't know what to do or how to feel or act. I think I like him. People say we are the perfect couple. He denies it but then again so do I. I'm a little scared. He's even getting me a Christmas gift. If it is really nice I will ask him out. I guess he can do whatever he wants. I'm getting him something nice. I hope he does the same. I don't want to be greedy I want to be loved. I always have! I always will! I just can't believe I feel this way. I hope he does! Will love conquer or will rejection? Help me. Do other people feel the same way, or am I the only one with boy or man problems? I think I need help more than life.
I am so tired. I have been sick now for 6 days! It's good though I've had a lot of time to think. Mason put his arm around me today. It felt like heaven.
