Rant Stories and Stuff

Hopes, Dreams, and Unanswered Questions

Author's Note: Okay so this is just a rant that I directed at one person specifically (who it was directed at is irrelevant). But you don't really need to know the full story to know I was kind of screwed over by the individual in question. Lots of things happening here. Many emotions mixing together at once.

Trigger Warnings: None

I hope you understand the hell you made us go through,

I hope you understand the mental impacts we went through,

I hope you understand where you went wrong,

I hope you never make another person suffer,

I hope we never get a message from you,
I wish you answered all the questions in my head,

I wish I didn't remember all the things you've said,

I wish I spent that time with my best friend instead,

I wish I had been around while she was here,

I wish I never believed what I was told,

I wish I didn't have all these questions until I grow old,

I wish I didn't have all these what-ifs in my head,

What If I didn't believe you,

What if you came back,

What if you never answered me,

What if you did answer me,

What if I spent summer with her instead

of worrying about what you said.

What if I never met you

Where would I be?

Would I be focused on school

Would I have my sanity

Would I have expressed my emotions instead of keeping them repressed?

Would I have spent all that time with her?

Would I have all these regrets?

Would I be in a better state of mind?

Would I have been able to make the time last?

Would I keep looking at this past?

As the questions continue to go unanswered,

Will I ever stop thinking about this?

Will I ever be able to stop seeing the outcomes,

of a future that will never exist.

Will I ever stop dreaming of her by my side,

instead of chasing the dark truth inside.

All I can do is dream.

Dream of those nights long lost,

Dream of a friend I've never forgotten,

Dream of better days,

Dream of different ways,

Dream of the darkness lurking inside,

As the nightmares take control.

Thank you,

For giving me Hopes, Dreams, and Unanswered Questions.

A gift I never wanted.