depressed Todoroki x Bakugou

Chapter 4

Hey guys, sorry I took that break, I know some of you actually like my stories. Witch I'm very thankful for. I hope you like this one.

-Todoroki's POV-

I woke up to an empty bedroom. I had forgotten that Bakugou had walked me back to my house and let me stay here.

It was Wednesday. So I guess I'm halfway through the week. Oddly enough, it feels like it's been a lot longer than that. I know it's cliche but I mean it.

You would think it's been a whole week. Though, I feel like it's been a year. In my mind, everything moves slow, like it had no purpose to be moving at all. As if it were moving because it had to and not because it wanted to. Moving only to stop when comes the time.

Holy shit, did I just say those words in my head just now? I should write them down.
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When comes the time
We all follow the rhymes
We move only to stop
We all watch the clock
Slowly I watch you go and leave
I feel blood roll down my sleeve
Turtles walk faster than you run
We've all forgotten to have fun
Though the action doesn't exist
To keep doing it we insist
You're hiding behind this happy mask
Go wash your dirty face after your task
Leave this place not to be able
Just lie making your life a fable
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How did I come up with that so quickly? Whatever, what time is it? Shit! I need to finish getting ready.

I got my uniform, put it in the bathroom and took a shower. I wasn't doing this hastily because I wanted to go to school. I was doing it because I wanted to go to school with Katsuki.

I finished getting ready and went downstairs. I heard a knock at the door.

I opened it up to find Katsuki with a tired face.

"Hey Katsuki! What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Picking you up." He explained.

"You don't do this normally." I said.

"I am now so expect it every morning." He said, it sounded kind of rude. I mean the thought was nice but the deliverance wasn't.

"I'm sorry, the way I said that made me sound like a doosh bag didn't it?" He asked me.

I loved it when he asked me questions, and apologized no less. It meant he cared.

"No, not really. I'm sorry I made you worry."

"Mm. Don't apologize."

We walked to school and got to our class room and sat in our seats. It made me sad to know that Katsuki was on the other side of the of the room. But every now and then when we would lock eyes, he would give me a reassuring smirk.

We sat in the same row, but on different ends so he could see me clearly but only if he looked my way. Witch he did often.

-Bakugou's POV-

I was listening to Mr. Aizawa's lesson kind of. But I was mainly focussed on Shoto. He was acting a little wierd. He started to scratch his wrist a lot then raised his hand to use the restroom. I knew there was something up.

So, not to be suspicious, I waited about a minute before I asked to use the restroom. I followed where Shoto had gone and walked into the restroom to find him with another blood covered arm.

"Goddamnit Shoto! What the hell are you doing?!" I yelled. He swung around and stared at me.

He looked scared and hurt. He started to cry a little. I walked up and hugged him tighter than I have.

"I'm sorry I raised my voice." I said.

"It's okay." He said between sobs.

"I'm taking all your razors. Give me all the ones you have on you now." I told him as I pulled away.

He gave me three. Though I felt there was more. "We're going to your house after school and I'm going to get ALL your razors. I'm not letting you hurt yourself anymore." I told him.

"I'm sorry." He said. "I'm so, so sorry."

"Stop apologizing. C'mon, let's bandage you up."

We did that then headed back to class.

"Todoroki, Bakugou, you two certainly took your sweet time." The human caterpillar said as we walked in to the room.

"Yeah, and?" I asked.

"Everyone, ignore the angry hedgehog for a minute and we'll continue our class. Not you hedgehog. You're sitting out in the hall. With your friend." He said with a fierce tone.

So me and Shoto walked out of the room and sat beside the door.

"Sorry I put us out here." I said to him.

"It's okay, it's better than being in class with knowledge I've already learned."

"I didn't know the type of language he was teaching." I explained.

"I learned that stuff in the fifth grade." Shoto said quietly. "I could tutor you if you want." He suggested.

"Sure." I agreed. The thought of spending more time with him made me blush a little.

"When should we do it?" He asked me.

I didn't know how to respond. Is he talking about sex?!

"Do what?" I asked.

"Tutoring"

"Oh, how about every Friday. Or more." I smirked at him.

"That sounds nice." He said.

-Todoroki's POV-

"That sounds nice." I said to Katsuki. I was trying to distract myself from what lies ahead. I'm not ready to have him come search through my things to find razors.

The good thing though, his voice is very distracting. It's captivating. It helps me calm down. That's all that can be said.

He's just a perfect man. And I'm shit.

(Bold is bad thoughts)
Why the fuck is he still here?
If I were him I would've ditched me a long time ago.
But he IS here now and that's what matters.
But I'm like the worst person in the world. I'm a waste of fucking time. I'm such a burden on him. I need to go fucking die.
"Stop! Stop it now!"

Shit! Did I say that out loud!?

"Stop what?" Katsuki asked me.

"N-nothing." I stuttered. I started to try to rip some of my red locks out before Katsuki took my hand away and held it in his.

"What's wrong?" He asked kindly.

"It's the.." I started. I realized I was a little loud so I quieted down. "It's the voices." I said.

"Don't listen to them." Katsuki said as he squeezed my hand.

"Shouldn't I just go kill myself? No one would miss me and I wouldn't be your burden any longer." I said very gloomily.

"Where the fuck did that come from?" He asked. "I would miss you so goddamn much I'd kill myself. And you aren't a burden on me. I told you I fucking love you so don't think anything else." He said aggressively.

"I'm sorry."

"And no more apologizing. You've got nothing to be sorry for." He said.

"Okay."

None of this makes sense. First he said he loves me, wich i kind of believe is a lie, then he says he'll miss me? This seems like total bullshit.

"Dammit Shoto, none of this is a lie." He said. Did he read my mind?

"No I didn't read your mind. You've been talking out loud this entire time."

I hope you guys liked it. But seriously, did you guys notice how DEEP some of what I wrote was? Like the part were he said everything moved slow. That seriously shocked me. Anyway, chapter 5 coming soon!