The Fire In My Heart

CH.4

I was laying on my bed with my notebook in my hands, if you want to call it notebook, it's more of a sketchbook.

I was drawing new shirt and pants designs for myself and another one for Amy.

I love designing and drawing, it takes me to my own world, sometimes when I'm upset or not having the best day, holding my sketchbook and sketching anything will always makes me feel better, it's like putting emotions in it even if it's just a simple sketch, and believe it or not, some of my best designs were drawn when I was upset and needed to put my feelings out.

After I finished drawing the design I took my iPhone out of my pocket and took a picture of it, I went to twitter and clicked on a new tweet.

"@JonasDreamer1 I have a feeling you will love what I'm designing next :) " and then clicked tweet.

If you didn't figure it out yet, after I finish each design or any sketch I take a picture of it and tweet it to the world, why do I do that? I don't even know, I just like to share it.

I got up and went to put my stuff away when I heard my phone tweeting, the ringtone I use for the notification, I closed the drawer and headed for my bed where I left my phone and put on my code to see that I'v got a notification from twitter saying that Amy tweeted me 

" OMG, can't wait to wear those, girl you are amazing ILYSFM: D: *** @96mahameed "

" Lol, ilyt girl, but you have to wait till I make them :) "I  tweeted her

I put my phone back on my bed and went to the small kitchen, we have in our room to make something to eat. After searching for something to eat, I found some food and I put it in the microwave to heat it.

Its almost 1pm and Amy was in Uni right now, she had to go to some lectures, I on the other hand had no lessons so I didn't go.

She said she will be home around 1:30 that means she should be on here way now.

I was lying on my bed thinking of something that I always think about.

Love.

This may sound stupid to some people, some people actually called me stupid for thinking like this, I believe of Soul mates, I believe in love at first sight. I believe that god created another human being that is the perfect match for us. 

I want to find that person, I want to feel that kind of love where you can't stand being away from each other.

I dated some guys, they were nice, but there was always something missing in the relationship, something not right. There was no spark, that's why they did not work.

I wonder when I meet that person if I'll know it's the right one the first time I laid my eyes on him, or will I figure it out later.

I want someone to treat me right, to hold me just because he wants and to hold my hand all the time, someone who will do anything to make me smile and never cry, someone who will not be ashamed of me being his girlfriend, someone that I can have fun with, someone that I can get along with and have a nice conversation with him, someone that I can have a good time with. I want someone special for me, someone that only sees me in a room of full of hot girls. I want someone who can love me in all the right and respectful ways.