February 22, 2020
Woke up today. Thinking damn why did I wake up again. I feel like something is wrong with me. Am I broken? Am I a mistake? Sometimes when I think talking to my friends and having friends is helping, all of a sudden I begin to shut down and feel a lack of emotions during the conversation. When these emotions shut down, I think of ways I shouldn't.
'Why am I here?'
'Why am I doing this?'
'I'm not even happy.'
'Devastation is inevitable, they are going to leave you too'
'Shut them out and if you can't, make them want to shut you out'
Sometimes it feels good to make them hate me, despise me but at the same time I want their validation and I don't know why. I apologize when I have done nothing wrong and even though I've known they've wronged me, I still forgive them. Am I stupid? I don't know.
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Diary Of An Extremely Depressive Person
RandomThis diary contains depressive emotions, I feel basically every day. I am afraid and angry and alone.
