Day 7 of school, I'm hardly a week into the year and I'm already in ISS. I didn't do anything this time; most of the time I get ISS because I deserve it, like when I flipped out on my math teacher last year, but this time it's because I'm a "trouble Maker". Note to self, don't get the reputation of a "Trouble Maker." Apparently this time I set trash on fire in the lunchroom; every time I say that it wasn't me they tell me to stop lying, such a great system of punishment. My Mom's gonna be pissed when she finds out.
As I walk in the front door of my house I can already hear my mom screaming, and as always its directed at me. So I Ignore her screams and walk into my room; when I get iin, I go to my computer and turn on my Bring Me The Horizon play list. I lay down and listen to the music until my Mom comes in, uninvited, into my room. She begins by turning off my music. After that she babbles on about how I need to try harder and how much I'm a horrible person, you know normal stuff.I tune most of it out, while I'm ignoring her I begin to think about what happened in the lunchroom. I had been talking to Saphire, the girl that I was infatuated with, about James' party over the weekend. I wish that I was invited to parties, but nobody likes the "stupid emo kid." I've always tried to fit in, but I would always slip up and say or do something that would alienate me from them. As Saphire was talking I saw Anthony with a lighter at the edge of the lunchroom; as I saw the lighter I knew what was going to happen next because he had been gloating for weeks about how "he was going to get me expelled."
I assumed that he was kidding, but assuming makes an "ass out of you and me." The only reason I wasn't expelled was because people saw Anthony fleeing the scene and they didn't have enough evidence; like I said, such a great system of punishment, and now I'm stuck in ISS again. If only I hadn't of done all the stupid shit I did, if only I didn't have this bad reputation. I've really been trying to get out of this loop, but I'm just stuck, I'm stuck in this pattern of shitty situations and depression; it all just gets derailed and that leads to things that I wish I didn't have to lie about, stupid cat. I'm tired of school and this whole damn pattern, so wouldn't cutting class tomorrow change that pattern, maybe Saphire will come too.
I text Saphire at about 9:30 and say "hey, I'm skipping class tomorrow, wanna come?" After I send the message I begin to over think everything she could do, it gets to the point where I'm really freaking out, if I don't calm down I'm gonna end up doing something regrettable. I think about that while calming down, then I see a text from Saphire "Sure Jason, see ya tomorrow! As I see that my heart does a kick flip in place, time to start planning!
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