Characters:
Y/N - 18 Years old
Corbyn - 19 years old
Y/N is insecure about the way she looks even though everyone loves her, so she started harming herself without telling her boyfriend, Corbyn, not wanting him to worry for her.
-Y/N'S POV-
Corbyn isn't home right now as he is in the studio recording a new song with the boys, he refuses to tell me about the song though. I'm so happy for him but he doesn't come home as often anymore... Is it really because he is busy with the new album? Or he is losing interest in me which is why he is avoiding me? Is it because I'm not pretty enough? Or I'm annoying? Or he found someone better? no no no.. I need to stop thinking like that. I stopped self harm for quite long, I'm not doing it again. But what if it is true... What if everything I thought is true?! There's no reason to prove its not! So it has to be true. Shit here we go again...
-END OF POV-
Y/N started tearing up to her thoughts so she played some calming music as an effort to stop thinking negatively and do what the devil in her mind says.
*Devil: You are so ugly and average looking. He's a celebrity with millions of girls chasing him, why would he want to stay with you and your emotional, annoying, clingy, suicidal self? Even your friends don't like you so why are you still alive?*
Y/N started to cry harder and tried to call her best friend Patricia.
-CALL CONVO WITH PATRICIA-
Y/N: Hey I need someone to talk to
P: Hey I love you and all but I'm busy with a client right now, I'll call you back later, is that ok?
Y/N: Yeah of course! I'm so sorry for interrupting
P: No worries, talk to you later
-END OF CALL CONVO-
*Devil: Omg what have you done?! You just interrupted her doing her work and she probably hates you so much right now. See, she doesn't even want to talk to you. What if what she said was an excuse so she doesn't need to hear your self-centered self rant to her about things that don't matter to her at all?*
Y/N put down her phone as her thoughts slowly killed her inside while she tried her very best to control herself. She always told herself to appreciate her friends and her boyfriend but nowadays her thoughts continuously tortured her mentally. She breathed heavily as she stood up to go to the toilet and looked at herself in the mirror. Her mascara was smudged with tear stains on her cheeks and her eyes red and puffy. Her hair was in a mess, not the usual smooth, silky, blonde anymore. Y/n took a deep breath before shouting into the mirror
Y/N: NO WONDER NO ONE LIKES YOU! YOU ARE SO UGLY OBVIOUSLY NO ONE WOULD SPEND TIME WITH YOU! WHY CANT YOU JUST END YOUR LIFE, IT WILL MAKE EVERYONES LIVES EASIER AND CORBYN CAN FIND A BETTER AND PRETTIER GIRLFRIEND THAT HE WILL LOVE. FINE I'LL END IT ALL NOW.
Y/N cried and took the blade in her hands, near her wrist...
-CORBYN'S POV-
I finally parked my car and is walking into my house right now. I just finished recording a new song for the album that I wrote for Y/N. She doesn't know about it as it is a surprise so I'm finally home to let her be the first person to hear it. Can't wait!!
*walks in the house*
I walked into the house to hear Y/N screaming but I couldn't hear what she was saying so I quietly walked up the stairs and peeked my head into our room then saw her standing in front of the toilet mirror with a blade in her hands. She looked so broken and that pained me. She wasn't herself anymore... Before she could do anything more, I ran up to her and hugged her from the back, at the same time hitting the blade out of her hand and holding her hands in mine. She squirmed around, trying to get out of my grip but she couldn't so she calmed down but still crying a lot. She started to fall out of my arms so I bent down, holding her in my arms while she sat on the cold bathroom floor. We didn't say anything, I just hugged her tightly, letting her cry into my shirt.
Y/N: I- I'm s-sorry...
C: Why... Am I not being a good boyfriend?
Y/N: You are amazing, the problem is me. I'm ugly, I'm fat, Everyone hates me, I'm annoying, I'M EVERYTHING YOU DONT WANT. I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I JUST WANTED TO END MY LIFE SO THAT YOU DIDNT NEED TO SEE ME LIKE THAT AND WORRY ABOUT ME. I'M SO USELESS I COULDNT EVEN DO THAT RIGHT AND I-
C: No stop... Look, I love you and I will never stop loving you. I hope you'll understand you're all I ever want and nothing else ok? You are the most beautiful girl ever and I want to spend my future with you so you cant leave me. If im not spending enough time with you, tell me. I'll always make time for you! You know I hate seeing you in pain and all I want to do is treat you like a princess and if I'm not doing that then it is my fault, not yours. Please don't ever scare me again like this... I beg you...
Y/N; I'm sorry...
C: Stop apologizing, just promise me you wont do it again. I love you so much and I cant lose you
I held up my pinky to show that I wanted a pinky promise from her and we pinky promised. I continued to hug her even tighter knowing that I couldn't have lost her if I took a bit longer to come home. Or even stopped at the traffic light. I wouldn't have made it on time. Oh right the song! It could cheer her up a lil
C: Hey babe, cheer up. Hear the new song I wrote for you that will be uploaded with the new album next month. I kept secretly recording in the studio since I wanted it to be a surprise for you.
Y/N looks up and smiles at me then proceeds to listen to the song, clearly understanding the meaning of the lyrics.
Y/N: I love you so much...
C: I love you too...
-END OF POV-
The end...
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