I wake up and realize I'm laying in a hospital bed
Mads is sleeping in the chair next to me as I look at my hand and she's holding it
I smile and whisper her name " mads "
She slowly opens her eyes and smiles " hey are you ok ?" She whispers
" I'm good , where is joey ?" I ask
She sighs and stares at the door
" what ?" I sit up worried
" he's in a coma " she tells me
My eyes widen " no "
I get up and mads try to lay me back on the bed but I push her and head out the room , I stop by a random nurse " can you please help me ?"
She nods " yes sure how can I help you ?"
" I need to find a guy he has gotten into a car crash accident his name is Joseph birlem please help me I need to find his room "
" oh joseph birlem , I'm sorry honey but you can't visit him " she tells me
" I know he's in a coma I just want to know where he is please " I beg her
She nods and starts walking down the hallway as I follow her , she stops at a dark room and we both look through the glass , joey is laying down on the bed with a lot of machines surrounding him , I look at his heartbeats and he's still alive
A tear falls down my cheek and I wipe it off
" he's gonna be alright sweetie " she pats my shoulder and leaves
I put my hands on the big window and sigh
No ones here , i can get in
I open the door and walk towards him , i sit down next to him and hold his hand
" joey " I whisper but he doesn't open his eyes
" joey , i know you can't hear me so I'm gonna be honest about how i feel for the first time , joey i still love you .. and I can't get over you and this hurts , it hurts joey , knowing you are the love of my life.. but not having you , it sucks to see you with another girl and i cry every time i realize we will never get together again " a tear falls down my cheek and I don't bother wiping it off
" i miss hanging out .. just me and you as a couple , i miss when we used to eat ice cream . I miss when you used to call me baby , princess and angel , those nicknames were the best " i laugh
" i swear I'm different than before joey , i need you in my life but you don't understand .. you don't get it i fucking love you , i would do anything for you , but you keep hurting me , i don't even know why i still love you i just do " i tell him as if he listens but he doesn't
I pull his hand closer to my lips and kiss it " goodbye joey "
I look at him one more time , I walk towards the door and leave
I head to the elevator and press 1 , i text Sebastian to come and pick me up but he tells me he's already here
I walk out the hospital and spot Sebastian's car and get in
I stare at my legs and don't say anything
" babe are you ok ?" He asks
" yes can we go to the house now ?" I tell him
He nods and drives off
We walk into the house and i storm upstairs and get in my room , i lock the door and lay in bed
I take off my clothes and sleep
2 month later
" Sebastian !!" I shout from downstairs
He shouts back from his room " yes ?!"
" we're late for school !!! What the hell are you doing?" I shout
" Take my car keys I'm not going to school today " he tells me
" fine !" I take his car keys and head outside
I start the car and drive off to school , mads told me that joey is coming to school today , I haven't seen him in 2 months now I'm so nervous
I put on music to calm down , i try to vibe with it but it's not working
I park the car in our school parking lot , i see joey's car .. holy fuck he's already here
I walk into the building and stop by my locker to take my notebooks
I then go to my classroom , no ones here I'm early , i sit in the back and open my phone
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