Love In A Hopeless Place {Narry}

Chapter 7

Niall's POV

        I wake up to someone licking my face, well not someone but, I'm pretty sure you can guess who it is. It is then that I realize how fucking cold it is. Wow, doesn't Liam know ow to turn the heat up? God, maybe Nando will do it for me if I ask him. "Nando? Could you turn up the heat on the bus please? I'm freezing, I don't have a giant ass coat of fur like you." He just licks my nose as a response.

I sigh and throw the covers off me and climb out of my bunk into the even more cold air... I am so going to stop sleeping in only my boxers when we come to Alaska.

"Liam! Liam! Turn up the damn heat! I am fucking cold." I call to Liam, where ever the butt head is.

"Just a sec! You know this is a new bus. I can't find the thermos stat thingy." He calls, from what I think is the kitchen.

I sigh and look at my bunk to see Nando curled up in my blankets, then I glance to the side of my bunk to see, none other, than the freaking thermos stat. Nice going Liam. I reach to turn up the heat and immediately it starts to warm up. Thank you Lord.

"Hey! Niall! It's getting warm! Did you find the thermos stat?" Liam yells, sounding like he's getting closer.

"No Liam, Nando found it."

"Well tell him I said thank you." he says coming around the corner to the bunks, and I bust out with laughter at him. He looks completely ridiculous. He's completely wrapped in like 5 blankets, with 2 beanies on his head, 3 pairs of socks on his feet, and a scarf covering almost his whole face. I can't calm down my laughter and Liam clearly looks annoyed with me. Once I start to catch my breath he shakes his head at me and pinches my arm. I yelp in surprise at his actions and whine a little after.

"What ya do that for?"

"For you making fun of me." He says boldly and crawls back into his bunk across from mine.

I sigh and crawl back into my bunk also and set Nando on my chest. Nando starts to lick my face again and I giggle.

I'm gay, I'm aloud to giggle.

Ok that was funny, but seriously. Ever since I came out to my fans and, pretty much the world, it's been really tough. I stopped going on twitter as much as I used to, because of all the hurt full words many people say. But, what does it even matter what I like and what I don't like? So what if I like penis, listen to my music and you'll never know I hate vagina. I even have a song titled Girl Almighty. When I did come out though, I lost probably about 50,000 fans. But, I know for a fact that they still can't deny listening to my music. My music is like a drug, even I'm addicted to it. You listen to it once, then you have to listen to it again and again and again. Like weed, you take one hit, then you have to take another and another and another, because you like the high that you get from it. I have never done drugs or smoked at all, but I like the simile I used. Don't judge me. Only God can do that.

And another thing, I am a Christian, I do believe in God and heaven. So back in Ireland, when I first came out as gay, many many preachers came to my house to 'fix' my 'gayness'. I understood where they were coming from, but nothing will stop me from liking boys. Nothing they say could change me, and I've read the Bible, great book by the way, but in the 10 Commandments it says not to lie. So I'm not. Also in the 10 Commandments it doesn't say anything about being gay is wrong, but in the Bible it says it's not right for a man to lay in the same bed as a man, and the same for a women... but, what's one little law being broken?

God hates sin, not people. He's loves everyone on this planet, even if you don't believe in him.

Sorry, I'm probably boring you.