𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗻𝗸𝗶𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗿 | 𝘳𝘶𝘦𝘭 𝘷𝘢𝘯 𝘥𝘪𝘫𝘬 𝘪𝘮𝘢𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴

there is no us, there never was

I stormed through the cold weather, I didn't care if it was raining I just wanna run away and go to somewhere far.

I hear footsteps following me but I already know who it was.
"y/n please, let me explain!" ruel yelled at a distance while me on the other hand was about to break down, I didn't answer him.

I hear him run up to me and grab my wrist
"please baby let me explain, it's not what it looks like." he pleaded but I quickly got out of his grip and faced him.
"explain?" I laughed sadly
"there's no explanation needed it was clearly showed right there."

"please, I didn't liked it. it was her fault"
he said with plenty of lies.
"really? because I saw you there with her being all lovey dovey and kissing, you were both smiling and sweet. does that sound like you didn't liked it?"
I said being frustrated.

I cried
"I wish I never met you, I wish I never thought of dating you. I thought all those  things you said was real? you didn't really loved me, right?"

"no, I love you-" I cut him off
"bullshit." i spat before continuing
"you love another girl, a girl who's better than me. a girl who has everything."
"I loved you with all my heart ruel, I thought you would change for the better, but turns out you would always go back to the old days, did you know how much it hurts when I saw you there? with her?"

"how did it feel when I saw you right there, kissing with another girl with my face full of anger and discomfort and sadness? how did that felt?" I said practically bawling my eyes off
"you were ready to leave me for her."
I said sadly
"no please let me fix this i-" I cut him off again by saying  "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed crying with pure rage and pain
"YOU CAN'T FIX IT ANYMORE!" i yell
"IT'S TOO LATE!" I shout again
"YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD JUST FIX IT ALL AND THINK THINGS WOULD BE BACK TO THE WAY THEY WERE?!" I yelled
"you can't fix it now." I said shaking my head

"but please let me fix us" he said
"there is no us, there never was"
i spat walking away.