Could you check my pulse for me ~ Kellin Quinn

Dont Even Bother.

I walked into school for the second time, I didn't even bother to look up at anyone because I didn't want to be here at all, nor did I plan on being here for very long either, because, I Kellin Quinn, am going to disappear into the cold dark abyss of the ocean. Friday is when I'm going to bless the world without my presence, I'm going to the rocky bottom of the ocean floor, the ocean will become my home.
Only 4 more days.

The sound of the bell alerted my thoughts and rang throughout the halls and classrooms, it was he most irritating school bell I've ever heard, but the only good thing about hearing the bell was that it meant that first class was starting, Music.

Music is the only place where I feel wanted and safe. I walked in, and the teacher, Ms Lenton I believe was her name, assigned me a seat up the back, by myself, I slowly walked down the back, by myself, and of course, I was getting queer looks from everyone, " fresh meat " was what some jackass called out, I sat down in my seat and completely ignored them and zoned out of the class, I couldn't care less honestly, I heard snippets of their band battle or something on soon, they all seemed so excited about it, I was replaced with thoughts about my old school, back to when I had friends, but of course that was all ruined the day Craig decided to come and screw everything up for me, he was one of my best friends, and he gained my trust, which was a hard thing for me to open to someone, one day he was over come with the feeling of popularity, and he told everyone about my sexuality, and he told everyone about what my dad did to me in our home, I was laughed at, called a faggot, and reminded how weak I was, people used to say to me in the hall, that they would hit me better than my dad ever could, and that they would make sure that I would be hurt, and honestly, it ruined me, as as always, word got around about what happened, and the school rang my dad, and of course he denied everything, but it didn't mean that he was going to leave me alone because of it, I got one hell of a bashing, and within 24 hours of the school finding out, we were packed up and on our way to sunny San Diego, the place of hopes and dreams.

My only dream was to disappear forever.

I was snapped out of my thoughts by a loud slamming of books onto the table next to me, it was that guy that got me yesterday, Vic. His name was neatly written on his music book, Vic Fuentes,.
He mumbled something to himself about having to sit next to a loser.mi ignored the comment and started writing some new lyrics into my book, I do t keep journals or letters or anything, I keep lyrics. Music is my escape and i put my thoughts onto paper.
" can you check my pulse to see if I'm alive " that's all that was written on my page, I couldn't think of anything to write, it sounded stupid. I moved my hand across the page to scribble it out, but my hand was stopped by Vics. " kid, dont scribble it out, it's good just change this " he grabbed his pen and went to write on my page but I quickly stopped him. " Don't call me kid. My name isn't kid, it's Kellin". He raised his eyebrows and looked at me blankly and then proceeded to write onto my page " could you check my pulse for me to see if I'm alive " he wrote quickly, I'll admit, it was good, maybe he isn't as bad as I thought he was, he smiled at me cockily and then went back to texting behind his book.