New Boy with Secrets//Namkook/Yoonkook

Saying Goodbye

Namjoon POV

It's been 2 days since Sang, Lee, Tae-hoon, and Dak-ho were arrested. Thankfully they have been denied bail until the hearing. Today is a day I never thought I would have to witness this early in my life. I was standing in front of my bedroom mirror adjusting my black tie. I let out a big sigh as I just stared at myself in my Black suit. "Knock. Knock" was heard on my door. I just hummed in response not really caring who was at the door.

"Hey." he simply said as he looked at me through the mirror.

"Hey." Was all I cared to say.

"Do you want to talk?"

"No."

"Namjoon just talk to me please I can't have you shutting me out."

"No Yoongi! I don't want to talk! I don't want to talk to anyone!" I yelled at him through the mirror not even turning around to face my Hyung.

"Please Namjoon are you mad at me? Just tell me what I did." I looked in my hyungs eyes and they were filled with tears I can't stand seeing my friends in pain. Just seeing Yoongi like this so broken just kills me.

"I'm not mad at you......I'm just mad that you got to know him....and.....and I'll never get that chance." That was it I tried so hard not to let my tears and sadness come out but here I am choking back my tears. "You had moments that I will never get to have. You got to take him out, smile with him, hold him, and.....kiss him." I knew I was crossing a line I mean they were together they loved each other. I know I wouldn't of gotten those moments anyway but I can't hide my jealousy with it.

Yoongi just sat on my bed with a little chuckle as a small smile came to his face. He sat there and I just kept standing, the room felt less suffocating as we just existed in silence. "He let you call him Kookie." He breathed out. His voice was so quiet as he spoke. "He didn't want me calling him Kookie it made him sad as he remembered Luca." I was shocked I didn't know that. " I know just by that nickname that he liked you too. Namjoon." I wiped my tears away as he stood up from my bed. " I loved him with all my heart and if he wanted to be with you I know it wouldn't change how he loved me. I know what I'm saying doesn't change the fact that he is gone I just want you to know that he liked you too; if there is anything you want to know about him just ask." Yoongi patted my shoulder before he walked towards my door. "Come down when you collect yourself the others are all downstairs." Then he carefully closed my door.

Yoongi is such a great friend he wasn't even mad that I was attracted to his long lost love. His words however did make me feel a little better. I just wish we could change the past so this day wouldn't come for another 60 years.

Yoongi POV

Stepping out of the black limo my family rented was agonizing. Every step passing by all the cold stones with so many forgotten names and old dates made me so sad. Most didn't even have a flower from a loved one just empty and alone. I couldn't imagine ever not leaving a beautiful pink flower for him everyday. I finally stopped as my Bunny's final resting place came to view. Familiar faces with their heads bowed made me happy that they were here to show respect.

Just yesterday was Sandeul's friends funeral the one that helped take down Sang and the others. Lots of men in uniforms showing respect for their fellow officer in blue. I'm glad to see Sandeul with the other officers that helped us here. Not a word had to be spoken as they all gave a nod of acknowledgement. Seokjin went up to Sandeul and shook his hand before giving him a hug.

Jimin who was using crutches went over to shake all the officers hands. Being shot and in the situation he was in really put him on a new path. Yesterday after the funeral he spoke of becoming a police officer he wants to help others. Of course we will always support each other but we are still scared for our friend.