Collide

Chapter Twenty-Four

Zach

I had to walk all the way home from the park, because Natalie had just left me standing right where I was. Right after she stomped on my heart and threw the tattered pieces back at my face.

It was a stupid move. It was probably the stupidest thing I'd ever done...

She was my dead brothers fiancé and it hasn't even been a full year.

Not to mention Natalie being right. Why would she want to kiss me, hadn't she completely over looked me the first time? I'd known her for two and a half months and when Id bright her to meet my family she had imeadeately went to max.

I think no matter how hard i try to forget about that time... When I was so wrapped up in Natalie but she couldn't even see me... No matter how much I had resented Max for being so... Perfect to Natalie. And even though I had accepted it, I don't think I will ever be able to forget.

And here I was again. Doing it all over, but this time my brother wasn't in the picture, and Natalie... Well she made it clear she doesn't want me. Doesn't want anything to do with me, Like that anyways...

I got home and walked straight to my room. Ignored any remarks or questions that were asked or tossed at me. I just needed to be alone. Right now.

However the fist thing I saw when I walked into my room was that stupid stack of letters from Max.

"Why did you have to ruin everything?!" I shouted unable to help it. "You ruin everything!" I grabbed the stack and threw it in my trash can. "I want to be happy too! Is that so much to ask!"

I wasn't sure if I was mad at the letters or if I was mad at my brother. I just needed to yell at something. It was better then feeling hurt, and broken.

So kicking of my shoes and peeling off my layers I laid down on my bed, closing my eyes and thinking that nightmares would be better then this.

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When I woke from my nightmare late in the afternoon I just laid there In bed, starring at the ceiling.

Thoughts of Natalie and Max swirled around in my head and I knew that I had no right to be angry at him for what they had...

My eyes slowly roamed around my room before landing on the trash can. The package of letters was just sticking out of he top and I knew I couldn't throw those away. They weren't even mine.

I got out of bed and walked over, picking them up out of the trash. Natalie deserved to have these. I couldn't give them to her, but id make sure she got them. It was the least i could do.

This was it though. I couldn't keep fooling myself into being around Natalie anymore. It hurt to much.
I cat be just friends with her anymore. At least not right now...

I needed to think. To clear my head... Something... Something that would help me forget... Or let go of what I can't have.

Grabbing the stack, I walked back to my bed and sat the on the edge of it. I should have give them to her a long time ago..

Before I could change my mind, I got dressed and grabbed my keys. Taking the steps two at a time as he jogged to the front door and slipped out of it.

I was half way there when I started to question what I was doing. I can't risk ringing the door Bell. What if she answered it? Then what did i do?

I pulled up and sat in my truck for ten minutes just starring at the front door.
I really hoped she wouldn't come out and see me here.. What would she think then?

No. I needed to stop worry about what she thought of me. I knew what she thought of me.., I needed to get over it.

I made up my mind to sent the stack on her front porch. And let her find them the next time she comes out of the house..

"Goodbye Natalie..." I whispered as I walked back to my truck and pulled away from her curb.