Why him,not me?

CHAPTER 4

"Hey. We passed by your hotel room and it was empty. You never eat breakfast what are you doing down here?"

Off smiled as Gun and Tay sat with him as he nursed an orange juice that was now lukewarm. If Mike hadn't insisted on going down for breakfast with him he would probably be in his room.

"I came with Mike. We passed by your room, you weren't in." The question was directed at Gun but Tay answered.

"He spent the night with me." Gun quickly looked aside.

Off wondered how he hadn't noticed before that the way Tay and Gun interacted was different. It was intimate.

That hand across Gun's shoulder showed ownership. That hand was caressing Gun's nape and was Gun leaning into Tay's hand?

"I'll leave you two. I have a TV interview to promote my new series. Gun will you take care of that thing we talked about?" Gun just smiled at Tay as he left but didn't reply. 

Off didn't miss the way Tay squeezed Gun's shoulder and Gun's sweet smile to Tay.  Off mentally face-palmed himself, he was an idiot.

"What thing Gun?"

"It can wait." Gun coyly replied as he watched Tay walk away.

"So, how long have you two been fucking?" Gun choked on his oolong tea and accepted the napkin Off handed to him.

"When.... when did you find out?"

"Last night." Colour tinted Gun's cheeks as he remembered every little thing Tay had done to him. Yeah, it had been a perfect way to end the night.

"How," Gun breathed the question. Off really tried to smile to hide his feelings but was failing. He could feel his fingernails digging into his palms. He quickly hid them under the table.

"I saw you two. You disappeared on me so I went looking for you. I had left my bags in Tay's room so I still had his hotel room key and well... you can imagine."

"I'm sorry Papii!"

"For what?"

"I..."

"How long?"

"6 months." That had been around the same time he had broken up with his ex. He now knew why Tay had been cagey these past few months.

It bothered Off that of all people in his life, Tay would have an inkling that he had feelings for Gun. Hell, Tay had been the first to tease Off about Gun.

What hurt him the most was that he had confided in Tay about wanting to ask someone out and Tay hadn't said a word. Worse Gun had also been silent about it.

"Why didn't you say anything to me Gun? Why the big secret?"

"Why? Are you seriously asking why we snuck behind your back?" Off chose not to respond.

"So who else knows about you two?"

"Maybe 6 people, most of them caught us kissing or in bed but they have since kept the secret."

"Wow, I'm the fool. The last to know."

"It wasn't like that Papii."

"Then explain to me what it was like exactly. But I thought you were both straight, Tay jokes about fellatio and stuff but you have always maintained you like girls."

Gun chuckled and looked Off straight in the eye.

"I used to do that to the press and nowadays nobody ever asks that question anyway. I know you don't believe that.

Deep down you have always known. What straight man sits on another's lap and likes to kiss other men? You knew but ignored it like everyone else around us."

"Hold up, why do you keep kissing me and hugging me like that all the time if you are now with Tay. Doesn't he get jealous?"

"It does bother him from time to time but he knows I come back to him. You know all this started between us as fan service so it didn't mean a thing and I probably do it because I just like seeing you flustered all the time. You are so easy to tease. But if you want me to stop, I will."

Off knew he didn't want him to ever stop. Although things had changed between them, they were things he still liked to maintain. He had admitted in many interviews that he liked Gun's soft lips and he would be damned if he never felt them again.

"Where you ever going to tell me?"

"I felt that it was news best coming from Tay, he's your bestie."

"What about you?"

"No."

"Why?"

"Because Papii, I just knew you wouldn't like it and I wasn't wrong was I." Off remained silent because he knew it was true.

"Aah, so I was the thing to be taken care of. Wow." Off deeply inhaled.

"Are you and Tay going public with this?"

"No. Obviously we can't. Our collective careers depend on pretending you and I are more than friends. Besides, I never really thought we would even last this long."

"Oh. How did you two end up together?"

"Papi, are you sure we should be discussing this?"

"I want to know." Off growled at Gun

"We went out for dinner, one of the many times you refused to come with. We got shit faced and kissed in a taxi on our way back.

Pretended it didn't happen but days later he kissed me sober and we liked it and we went from there.

"So, are you two in love now?" Gun frowned not sure just how honest to be with him. Well for the most part, they had always been honest with each other.

"I don't know. I deeply care for him and I just know I like spending time with him. I don't know if its enough to call it love."

"I think he loves you. I saw the way he looked at you today. I don't know how I didn't see it before."

"I know. So, Papii now that you know. How do you feel? Are you mad?"

"I don't know how to feel about everything. It's you and someone else and that someone is someone I also deeply care for. Oh god." Off remembered how he had tricked out Gun's hotel room with the help of Gun's sister.

"Promise me. Don't go back to your hotel room." Gun smiled.

"Papi, you know I can't. My stuff is there. Did you leave more gifts for me. Wow, you did didn't you? No wonder Tay likes calling you my sugar daddy." Gun's face broke into a wide grin.

"Papi, you did promise that bracelet was one of the many gifts for me."

"Please don't go. Your assistant can always collect your stuff for you."

"Papi, you got me curious." Gun got from his seat and grabbed him in a tight hug and squished him tight while raining kisses all over his head and face.

"You know that whatever you got me, I will love it to bits. You know me best of everyone."

Before Off could stop him, Gun dashed out of the restaurant to the elevators. Off wasn't fast enough, the elevators had already closed. He had no option but to take the stairs. Gun was already at his room, the hotel room door wide open.