Cross-hairs (Akakuro)

Chapter 12

Akashi P.O.V

This boy has some nerve , To get in my space the way he did, It was. Refreshing actually. I look back at him as we walk, his hair though its a lot shorter is still mesmerizing and bright. I sigh gently

He's hiding something, A lot of things. Why would he call his 'Dad' Sir, Whats with the Tattoo and the thing I'm angriest about. Is why are there those scars on his back?

Who is hurting him and why Didn't I do anything to stop it when I had the chance to. I normally walked him home why didn't I do it that day? 

Why is the day he went missing so goddamn fuzzy? Why does my brain start to hide these things from me, I can barely remember my mothers last days before her passing. Ye sit hurts to think about but.  It hurts more to forget it. I sigh gently walking into the library pausing gently as I see Tetsuyas shoulders go from their tense and guarded form to a calm and relaxed position as he looks around at the books on the shelves. 

Tetsuya always liked to read, he always liked the library. I used to visit them with him on days I could get away from my father. I would love just watching his, seeing his eyes move quickly over the page. 

The small smile that he would show when he found something funny while reading and the small pink that dusted his cheek when something romantic happened. Or the fact his breathing would hitch slightly when I would take his hand in mine under the table while I read my own work. Though My eyes spent more time fixed on Tetsuya than on the pages. 

Kinda like now, Even though we found our way to the table we would use, My eyes never left Tetsuyas astonished face, The most emotion hes shown in his eyes since what almost happened in my room. 

We almost kissed, that still surprises me. I panicked when his phone started ringing. Why didn't I just do it? Because I thought this isn't the Tetsuya I used to know, Used to love. This person is different, But his behavior can be the same, How he acts, how he walks, there's still hints of the guy I loved in him. I just have to draw them out. But I cant commit to him like I want to - Not yet - I can't because he isn't the same. Even if we get his memories back. Hes still gone through trauma. How will he recover? 

I look around the table as we all set up, I look back at every individual person besides Tetsuya. They all had the same look in their eye. Signifying that they were all thinking the same thing, they all wanted the Tetsuya we care about so much back to normal. 

We can help him through this trauma, Nigou can help him I can help him. We're his friends and I know me and the other miracles abandoned him once in out own egotistical worlds but HE brought us back, he saved us from ourselves and brought the light back into our life. Not bad for a shadow I'd say. We'd help him now. We abandoned him once 

I failed him twice 

I wont be doing that again, No. I'm gonna save him. And I will keep him safe, Im gonna make sure NO ONE thinks of touching him aggressively again. No one will hurt him. I'll kill them where they stand if they try, I swear to any and every God there is I'm going to-

"kshi..Akashi?" A gentle voice brings me out my thoughts I turn seeing Tetsuya stare back at me expectantly. 

"Huh?" I whisper, He sighs 

"We've been sat down for like... 5 minutes" He says "Nothings on the desk from you. you were just staring blankly at me" I look around seeing everyone eyes go from me onto their selective items. Some have their laptops some have notebooks. I clear my throat 

"Right sorry got distracted" I mumble quickly getting my things out

"Really?" Tetsuya asks and chuckles "And you said you were the one that got them to work. Seems like you're doing more staring than working." He says, I tense slightly. No I cant get mad when hes right. I just hate being challenged but If its Tetsuya I cant scare him. I sigh and place my book against the table before my pen rolls on the table and lands on the floor, I sigh and lean down to grab it before a hand picks it  up, I look up coming face to face with the man that has overtaken every corner of my mind. I bite my lip gently as He stares at me.