Akashi P.O.V
Its been like two weeks since we raided Tetsuyas room, I haven't made any decent progress on the agency database, No matter how many times I try to get round the password I fail miserably.
But on the bright side I've spent more time with Tetsuya. I find myself falling more in love with him, I didn't even know it was possible. Every second of every day used to be filled with thoughts of him, His smile, His stubbornness and how he would never give up. But then when I entered high school those thoughts got taken over by one thing. Winning. And I ended up hurting him. I even blocked him and I dont know why.
I need to stop torturing myself like this but I deserve it. If I didnt block him or ignore him He wouldn't have gone missing, god Im an asshole!
"Akashi!" The voice of the man I love throws me from my thoughts as I look back at him "Everyones leaving...Cmon" He says and smiles at me,
That smile, It was something that I missed. It was his Genuine smile. It only started showing up again after the group started spending more time with him. We were playing more basketball and I want to fool myself into thinking he was going back to his old self but, He wasn't.
He still teased me and made little jokes against me, He was still well....An asshole. But I still care about him. I want to save him I just cant get into this Damn database.
"Oh right uh..yeah" I mumble and stand up shoving everything into my bag. I walk after him as we walk towards the college's cafe. On top of all of this I was worried about Mayazumi, He's missing and the police have no leads, To top it all off he has no family I can check up on and look after like I do with Mita. Well I haven't really been look after her, I've been so busy trying to move on... I really am an asshole.
"Akashi? You're kinda quiet" He says looking back at me, "You okay?"
"Yeah...I'm okay Just a lot on my mind I mean. My friends missing. An old friend." I sigh gently
"That must be hard for you" He says looking at me. I sigh gently as I sit down in one of the chairs seeing him sit next to me, It was becoming the norm of him sitting next to me when we go out. We would talk a lot too we Text like every night until one of us ends up falling asleep. The only problem is
We keep almost going too far. I keep almost kissing him and I want to but I can't. I can't kiss him when...hes not Tetsyua. Not anymore. "Yeah its hard, I mean we weren't THAT close but...I just.. I cant go through this again" I mumble looking down at the table.
"It must be hard to go through this again, I'm sorry Akashi" He whispers gently grabbing my arm and smiling at me, "I'm sure they'll find him soon" He says sliding his hand down my arm closer towards my hand
"Maybe they will" I mumble "I hope they will." I look back at his hand, Getting closer towards mine, Everywhere he touched tingled my arm, I watch him and smile gently, he always seemed to calm me down. Always.
Why did I block him, Why didn't I save him. I could have helped him and maybe...Just maybe. He wouldn't be living in those dorms. He's still be with his mom Maybe spending the night at my place sometimes.
Maybe even talk about a family or marriage
Woah! Too fast we're only in college and I'm thinking about marrying a man who..Doesn't exist anymore.
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Cross-hairs (Akakuro)
FanfictionAfter the death of his closest friend and love of his life. Akashi seijuro was at a loss of life. Trying to get through each day hoping the pain would stop eventually but it doesn't it stays to plague him. Until someone unexpected comes back into h...
