Laugh Now Cry Later

My Number?

Jungkook P.O.V

I woke up immediately feeling the pain from the beating I had, had the night prior. My vision was blurry, my stomach was throbbing along with everything else.
I tried to get myself up up but I immediately fell back into the floor yelling out in pain. I then looked down at myself to see my shirt and pants covered in blood. I need to get up and take a shower if I'm even thinking about going out. I gave it another try before I successfully stood up. Every step felt like hell, but I guess I deserve it.
Once I made it up what felt like endless steps I dragged myself into my room before locking the door. I'm so useless... why do I keep putting myself through this pain. Honestly this pain is the only thing keeping me somewhat keeping me from going insane.
I slowly but surely made my way to the bathroom. Once I was in there I looked up at myself in the mirror Disgusting. I slowly peeled my clothes off before turning around and stepping into the shower.

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Later That Day...

I was just walking around outside when I realized my feet had led me to the coffee shop me and Taehyung had went to the day prior. I looked over to see a hiring sign bright and bold stuck into the coffee shop door. It got me thinking, should I? No, Yes. Fuck it, why not.
I was a bit unsure but the more I thought about it the better the idea sounded. I turned on my feet and slowly made my way toward the door. The bell on the top of the door rang signaling I had entered. Maybe this would give me the chance to get away from my mom more.
I took about 30 more steps before I was at the cashier. "Hey I would like to apply for a job." - say looking up to the girl running the cashier. " oh great finally someone is." I smiled at her response, that probably means I have a better chance at getting the job. "Here you go." -she said handing me the application along with a pen. "It's been boring here not having anyone to really socialize with." " I really hope you fit for the job, you seem cool." I seem cool? I thought. " yeah I hope I'm fit for the job as well." -I say handing the filled out application back to her. "Well, I'll stop by tomorrow to see if I got the job or not." " okay sounds good to me." " Have a nice day then."
I made my way out of the cafe with a small smile on my face. God I hope I get the job. As I was walking out I had my head down not looking at what was in font of me. Before I knew it I had bumped in to someone. "oh I'm sorr-" -I stopped when I realized who it was. My heart started to race like crazy and my legs felt like they were going to give out. " T-taehyung?"-I say frozen. " Hey Jungkook." -He said with a smile. Why is he so handsome?! "Earth to Jungkook?" -He said snapping me out of my daze. "Oh yeah hey Taehyung."
I jump back onto my feet coming out of Taehyung's embrace. Well this is awkward. " So... what are you doing here?" " I was just applying for a job." -I say embarrassed. " Well, if you're done do you want to go somewhere?" " Y-yeah sure.." " Follow me then." -He said leading the way. " Right begins you then." I watch as Taehyung turns around to walk infront of me. Dang he even looks good from behind. "You coming?" Tae say snapping me out of my gaze. " Oh yeah I'm coming."

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*at the park*

Taehyung p.o.v
We were walking through the park when I looked over to see Jungkook, he seemed a bit tired. I noticed the bench I found Jungkook sleeping on a few days earlier. "Hey, let's sit down for a bit." -I say pointing over to the bench. "O-okay." -Jungkook replies.
I sit down before letting out a long sigh I didn't know I was holding, "So,...how's your day been?" -I say looking over to the younger. "Kinda okay I guess." " Hmm" -I hummed in response.
"Anyway, about the other day, I'm sorry I didn't mean to leave so sudden like that." "I had realized I had an important essay due and I hadn't started it yet." " It's okay Jungkook don't worry about it." -I reassured him.
"Anyway, I didn't get a chance to get your number."
"By chance may I have it now?.." -I ask nervously.
"You want my number?" -He asks looking at me with a confused face. " Well who else would I be talking about?" -I say handing him my phone. " Okay." I watch as he slowly types his number into my phone. "Here you go" " Thank you." -I say with a bright smile as I take my phone back.
I look back over to see a little smile spread across his face. That's the first time I've ever seen him smile, he should really do it more it looks good on him. " let's walk so more" -Jungkook says shyly before quickly standing up. " If you say so." I internally scream, god he is so adorable. "Oh yeah what time is it by the way?" "Hold on a sec." -I say pulling my phone back out of my pocket. " it is 5:42"
"Okay thank you." He replies.

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We were just silently walking through the park enjoying the nice weather when Jungkook suddenly tripped over a rock. I quickly grabbed his waist to stop him from plunging to the ground. What surprised me was how loud he winced at the act. I quickly help him gain balance before letting him go.
"Are you okay?" -I ask worriedly "I-I'm fine" -He says holding his stomach. " Are you sure? Let me see." -I say as I go to lift his shirt to see what's wrong but he quickly stepped back away from me. "I said I'm fine." "Taehyung I got to go." " Hey wait let me walk you." " It's okay I'll text you later." I watch as Jungkook quickly walks away leaving me here to wonder what I did wrong.

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Jungkook p.o.v
  I quickly walk away. If he would've seen that he would be so disgusted he would've even want to look at me. I suddenly realized I was crying I have no clue when it started tho but I couldn't stop. I brought my eyes up from the ground to realize I had already made it all the way home.
Fuck it I thought not hesitating at all as I walked straight into the door and rushing up to my room. I'm such a freak, disgusting, worthless. The voices just kept piling inside my head one by one. I quickly look beneath my bed before pulling out a shoe box. I scam through the box before pulling out a small shiny piece of metal.
                             *Trigger warning*
  I quickly pull up my sleeve and press the small object to my arm and slowly drag it along my skin. I watch as the blood starts to pour out. I then made another cut along with another before I soon lost count. Before I could even think I looked down to see I was sitting in a pool of my own blood. I felt empty, numb. I honestly don't know how much longer I can do this shit.
I suddenly hear my phone go off. I quickly grab it to realize that it was a call from Taehyung. "H-hello?.."

A/N: Hey guys sorry it took so long to get this chapter out . I've been busy but now that we're on this corona break it gives me some time to catch up so stayed tuned for the upcoming chapters!
I love you and stay safe💜💜