BTS & Seventeen One Shots

Confession - Namjin

When Namjoon confesses to Seokjin by accident.

Namjoon P.O.V

I was working at my studio for our new album. We didn't had an concept yet, so i was just brainstorming. I heard a knock on my door and looked at my watch. I saw it was evening already. Nice and i didn't even thought of a melody. It knocked again and i was brought back to the present. "Come in." i said to who ever it would be, but i hoped it would be Seokjin. You see, i have a huge crush on him, nobody knew except Hoseok. I looked at the door and got lucky. Seokjin came in with a bag. "Hey Namjoon, did you eat ?" he asked. I couldn't help and smiled. "No hyung, i didn't." He just shook his head. "Namjoon, you are here since 8 am and didn't ate a single think. That's not good for your health. But you are lucky because you have me. I bought you something to eat and i won't go away until you ate all of it." he finished. Oh jesus, he is so cute when he trys to be strict. I just stared at his beautiful face and i couldn't stop. "Yah Namjoon, it's rude to stare." he said but i could see that he blushed. Ahhh , so handsome. "Sorry, hyung. I will eat your food but only if you help me afterwards." i suggested. "Ok, deal. I bought some chicken and ramen also an ice americano." He took the food out and handed it to me. " You always know excactly what i need. Thank you Hyung."

After i ate everything, Seokjin had a big smile on his face. "So now that i ate everything, will you help me? I tried to brainstorm all day but i don't have a single idea in my mind."
"Hmm, maybe that is your problem. You need insperation and you don't get that, if you are here all day long." he said to me. He was right. "What should i do then? " i asked him. "Hmm." I could see he was thinking hard. It was cute. "Okay for now we go home and tomorrow we will go out and do some things to get your mind off. How does that sound?"
A whole day with Seokjin? That's what i like. And we will be alone. "That's actually a great idea hyung. I look foward to it." i answered with a smile on my face.

The next day, we sat in a car and Jin were driving. He didn't told me where we are going. He just said that it is a surprise. The weather was really nice. Jin was wearing his sunglasses and it looked so good on him. I kept looking at him from time to time, just to admire him. How can someone be so handsome. "Joonie, you're staring again." he said suddenly. I could feel that my cheeks became hot. "Sorry hyung." i said too him. He just laughed. " Anyways , we are here." he said and i looked outside. We were at some beach. "What are we doing here hyung?" i asked him. He looked at me and smiled. "I thought we could go for a walk and talk a bit. We don't do that so often anymore. Also, i made some lunch, so we can sit at the beach and eat something. How does that sound?" he asked. It sound likes a date. Ah Namjoon, it's not a date. "I like it hyung. Thanks for doing this for me." i said to him. He looked at me. He moved his hand towards my hair and tried to brush it away from my face. He looked deep in my eyes while he did that and smiled. I could stare in his eyes forever. I felt that my heart started to beat faster. "It's alright. I know that you are having a hard time Joonie, so i try to get your mind at ease." he said. He stared at me for a bit longer. I smiled back. How could i not love him? "Seokjin.." i whispered but he didn't heard me. "Let's go." he said and turned around to open his door. Shit Namjoon, you almost confessed to him. I think i took to long because he opened my door and asked: "Are you coming?" I nodded my head and followed him.

We walked at the beach for hours. It was great, we talked like we used to before. We told each other our concerns and we tried to find a solution together. After three hours, we decided to finally eat something. Seokjin went back to the car and grabbed a basket with full of food. "Wow hyung, did you do all of that alone ?" i asked him. He nodded his head. "Yeah of course. You know me. Also, i made you favourite food, so enjoy it." he said with his big smile. "Thank you hyung, you are so thoughtfull." We ate quietly for a while. I only could think of ,how i like to tell him how i feel. But i am so scared. "Hey Joonie are you okay? You look so down." he asked me. I knew that he would see right through me. "Yes, i was just thinking. Everything is alright." i said to him. "Okay ,if you say so. " he answered back and we continued with our food.  After a while, Seokjin stood up. "Come on Joonie, it's getting dark and cold. We should head back to the dorm." he said. I agreed with him and started packing. We took everything to the car and drove back to the city. It was a wonderfull day.

I unlocked the door to our dorm and went in. Seokjin was behind me and went first to the kitchen. I followed him. "I will tidy up tomorrow. I am too tired to do it now. " he said. "Yeah, me too." i said and yawned. He laughed at me. "Okay Joonie, let's go to bed." he said and i nodded my head. His room was downstairs while mine was upstairs. We stopped before the stairs. Seokjin turned to me and stepped forward. "I hope i could help you and you gained some insperation. I had a very nice day with you Joonie. Maybe we can do something like this more often. Good night." He said and smiled. He began to walk to his room. I felt that i should stop him, so grabbed his wrist. I could see that he was shocked by my action. I mean, i was shocked too. I didn't thought this through so i did the only thing i could think of. I grabbed his cheeks and pulled him towards me. I closed my eyes and gave him a peck on his lips. It lasted only for a few seconds before i came back to reality and realised what i did. Shit, i kissed Seokjin. I jumped back and saw that he was surprised. " I..I.. I am so so sorry hyung. I don't..." i rambled while i was walking backwards. "I shouldn't have done this. I am sorry." I could feel that i was so close to cry right here and now. So i spun around and ran the stairs up. I messed everything up.

The accident happend a week ago and i didn't talked with Seokjin since then. He always tried but everytime i found an excuse to not talk to him. I missed him. I missed his voice and his smile but i can't bear his rejection. I hid in my studio everyday and tried to keep my mind off of him. Today, it wasn't different. I was making some beats when suddenly my door bursted open. I jumped at my seat and turned around. I saw the person i wanted and didn't wanted to see at the same time. "Namjoon, we need to talk." he said. He never called me by my name and i knew that i fucked everything up. "Ah hyung, i need to finish this. Can we talk later ?" I tried to get him out but he just shooked his head. " No we can't. You will just find another excuse next time. So we will not go before i know whats wrong. Why are you avoiding me Namjoon?" he asked me. I didn't know how to answer, so i lied. "I don't avoid you hyung." i said. He just laughed. He pushed himself of the door and came towards me. "Yes you're and i wanna now why because it hurts me." he said. Instantly i felt guilty. I hurt the most imporant person because i am too afraid. "Please Joonie, tell me what i did wrong." he said with a shaking voice. Shit, please don't cry. "You didn't do something wrong hyung, i am just a big coward." i answered. "Because you kissed me?" he asked. I just nodded my head. "I am so sorry that happend. I didn't know what i was thinking." i said and i could feel tears in my eyes. "Why did you do it?" he asked me with wide eyes and i saw tears in them. " I..I like you hyung. No screw that, i am in love with you. I am so in love, that you are always in my mind. And that day when i kissed you, i was so overwhelmed with emotions because it felt like a date to me. And i know it will ruin things between us. And i know you don't feel the same." i rambled out. I was shocked at myself but it felt so good to finally talk about this. "Joonie.." he tried to say but i stopped him. "No hyung, i don't need your pitty. I need to accept, that you don't like me like that." "But Joonie.."he tried again. "Please hyung, don't.." "KIM NAMJOON,JUST SHUT UP!" he shouted. He came towards me and grabbed my hands. He pulled me up until we were so close to each other. I could feel his breath on my lips. "Just shut up." he whispered and then he kissed me. What is happening? I melted under his touch. It was perfect. He was so soft and passionate at the same time. I kissed him back with all i had. I was afraid it was a dream. He pulled back a little and our foreheads touched. "I love you Kim Namjoon. I love you for a while now." he said. Did he just confessed his feelings? "What did you just said?" i asked again because i couldn't believe it. He chuckled. "I. Love. You." he said again. I think i stood there for a minute. The next thing i felt was, when Jin hit me with his hand. "Yah Joonie, you need to say it back." he said a bit louder. "I'm sorry, i just can't believe that you feel the same way." i said to him. His face softened. "Why shouldn't i ? For me you are perfect Kim Namjoon." he said and kissed me again. Wow. Seokjin loves me. I broke the kiss and looked him in the eyes. "I love you, too Kim Seokjin."

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