The Dark and the Light

The Beginning

 He scared me. Even when I had fallen in love with him he scared me. He always managed to appear when I needed him the most. He took me home after the boys from school were horrible to me at the cafe and made me cry. He cheered me up by surrounding me with books on chyropractry for no apparent reason.

I first saw him early in the morning crawling through my window. I don't know what made him come but later on I was glad he did. That first morning and many after it he scared me. He always answered my questions with "yes" except the first few mornings. He didn't say a word and I was too scared to ask any questions. The next morning I responded to his presence by throwing things from the top of my dresser at him. This continued until one morning I had decided that he hadn't hurt me yet and I should try talking to him. The faceless man came in like usual around five in the morning and instead of meeting me standing with something in my hand about to be thrown, I was just sitting at my dresser looking into the mirror at him. I couldn't tell if this surprised him or not because he never gave anything away. I finally asked him why he came. He responded with one word. This one word, spoken so strongly and so surely, made me believe it to be a real answer that exposed everything he was feeling and all his plans. Even the plans of the universe. This deep word was simply " yes". The next morning he came I asked him where he came from. His answer- "yes" - made me realize he didn't come from anywhere but everywhere. I was starting to view him a bit more as a creature of the universe. Something I could never fully understand but I still wanted to try.

The next time I saw him was when my sister dropped me off at the cafe. After the boys were so cruel I was walking away from the world I knew. Away from home, away from school, away from everything. I didn't want to be there anymore but I wasn't thinking clearly enough to decide where I was going to nor what I was going to become. As I was walking he appeared. We didn't speak for a long time but just kept walking. I finally broke the silence by asking him if he could show me the universe in it's wholeness and beauty. I asked him to show me the amazing secrets and the incredible deaths. I asked him if he would show me it all. He turned to me as I continued looking straight ahead. Suddenly, but very kindly, he grabbed my chin and pulled it so I was looking towards him and whispered "yes". That was the moment I started to fall in love.