I Still Want You

Chapter Five

Jimin's POV

This is hopeless. I am staring at my window, seeing Keegan and Jungkook laughing at each other. My sister and Jungkook is happy so I should be happy right?

I should dance with happiness. But no I cant— why is that Jimin??

It's because you sacrificed your happiness for their happiness.

I'm going mad. I'm talking to myself al My phone rang.

"Jimin", said the other line.

"Hyung, is there something you want to tell me?", I ask him. Yes, I'm talking to Jin hyung.

"Let's meet at the coffee shop near my school", he said. I agreed. I refuse to hurt myself more by locking myself up in my room thinking how much fun they are going on with.

I arrived exactly as Jun hyung arrived. I ordered frappe while he ordered mint chocolate ice cream.

"Jiminie you're leaving aren't you?", he asked. I smiled and nodded.

"I want to be a dancer Jin hyung so I need to leave the country", I explained. He nodded and eat a portion of his order.

"Is that so? Or you're saving yourself from pain?", he asked. I frozed. I smiled at him and shrugged.

"That's absurd Jin hyung. I'm leaving for my dream", I reasoned out again

"So you're leaving Jungkook?", he asked straightforwardly. I didn't answer because the answer is yes. I'm gonna leave him, there is no reason to bubble out that truth. "When is the last time you've eaten?", he asked me again. I smiled and didn't answer.

"Why did you call me for Jin hyung?", I asked. He nodded and start talking again.

"I want to tell you the Namjoon and I got back together", he said. I'm relieved. At least I'm leaving the country without torn relationships.

"That's great Jin hyung!", I tried my best to look happy.

"Thanks. And our friendship anniversary is next week. We are planning to go to the beach", he continued. "Everyone having a hard time reaching your phone. You shut everybody out that's why I'm informing you. You're coming right??", he asked. I smiled and nodded.

"I nearly forgot it. Yeah of course. Which beach??", I asked. Of course I wouldn't come. I will leave the country the day of our friendship anniversary.

"Thanks God. Everyone is worried for you", he said again. "You look like dead Jimin", he stated. I looked at my reflection on the glass in front of me.

I know. Lifeless would be best fit for me.

"I'm just stressed. I need to pass all of my requirements in school before I leave the country", I answered.

" I thought you love Jungkook?", he asked. I literally frozed on the spot.

"I still. I still want him like kindergarten. I don't think I would be able to get myself out on my addiction on him", my voice cracked. This is why I don't want to talk about him.

"Then why are you giving up?," he asked. I looked at him. A tear fell down on my eyes.

"I'm tired", I sobbed. "There's nothing that would guarantee that fighting would be a better option", I choked out. " He wouldn't want me as much as I want him Jin hyung. He's s-s-traight", I am having a hard time saying the words out.