Dream Ending

Chapter 3

Songs:

River of tears- Alessia Cara 

Bird- Billie Marten

All too well- Taylor Swift

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*Flash Back*

(about 6 months ago)

"Do you know what your gonna wear tonight?" Julie asked me from behind the bathroom door.

"Um probably just a pair of black jeans your light pink crop top"

"Yea, okay cute" I know that.

Tonight me and Julie are going to a school football game to meet this guy I've been talking to for awhile now, maybe 2 months? But he's made me happy and helped me forget sometimes. We've talked every singe night and he's fun to talk to.

As we pull into the parking lot I send a text to Gavin telling him that were here.

Gavin;): sorry were not gonna make it tonight.

Thats weird he was kinda excited about this. Well I thought he was. I just put my phone in my pocket and decided that me and Julie can still have a good time.

After we pay the lady at the table we go to find somewhere to sit. We usually find a spot in the grass instead of the bleachers. Its more comfortable.

More people in our group come over to us and sit and we all just have conversation and laugh. I know that Grayson is only like 3 people down from me, and I also know that he keeps looking over to our way. Im not gonna look at him because I know how this works. And I've spent the whole summer making myself stronger and I won't let it go to waste.

There was always something about him that I always wanted. He could have broke me every single day and I wouldn't know how to hate him. I think that I fell in love but I'm so young that I'm not really sure. I do know that I've never felt so much emotion then when I was with him. I can remember everything like I'm obsessed with it. Not in a weird way. Every look he used to give me. Every touch I ever felt was something that I could never shake off. But everything is in the past and I know that it was only me because I also remember how I sat there and watched him flirt with a girl in front of me while he was telling me he only liked me. When summer stared I knew that this was the perfect time to forget about him. So I deleted anyway that I could contact him so I wouldn't be tempted. I would cry a lot and feel really lonely most nights. I was always only going through the motions of living. I'd walk into a room but never really be there. I'd beat myself up and tell myself how pathetic I was. I'd think about how if he could see the shape I'm in right now he'd probably laugh at me. How could I love someone who was so bad to me. Sometimes I can forget how bad he was for me and only remember the good parts. But things have changed. I've changed.

While in thought I noticed that my phone was going off. Snapping out of that world I pull my phone out of my pocket.

3 Missed call from Gavin;)

Gavin;): hey

Gavin;): I need to talk to you

Those were form 8 minuets ago.

I didn't realize it but I had stood up and was walking toward the bathroom. Im confused. I started to call him back but he didn't answer but I seen a new message come over my phone.

Gavin;): this isn't gonna work. I don't think that we should talk anymore.

Wait what.

Me: okay?