IMPOSITION ~ [draft]

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... The only thing that stayed
Is something like stereo in my head
Keeps playing and it can't stop.
Once it stars, and it has no end.
I want someone to come over,
just to help me,
to fly away from this breaking disaster.

Was it release or satisfaction?
I felt that goosebumps all over my body.
Boy, you should be fuckin' careful 'bout your next actions.
Cause I wasn't that type of girl.
And you are neither so cagey.
I didn't expexted it'be like this.

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The heart wants what it wants.
Couldn't helped when I spot your innocence.
You had it in your touch and calm eyes.
Lets rewrite the story in our heads,
please.
Because we can't change the whole story,
we can't tell our bodies what they should do,
when we hear that songs in our heads.

I catched your melody,
but not your path with meaningful words hided in it,
so it didn't meant a thing...

Maybe you were a whole part of my song,
even a chorus.
I was just another pointless arch for you.
But that's okay boy.
Just let it go.

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You painted a circles on my body,
and stripes all along my arms.
Some days I can feel the scars,
they are screaming and yelling,
all over my body.
They are screaming your name.
They want to see your face,
so bad.
They just kinda
miss you.

You write a strong story, which cover is so hard to break.
I want to know the reason.
I want to get finally sober from those memories.

I swear, you carved those touches so deep in my body.
It was just us,
Just silence and passion between two confused souls.
Another stupid blame of two
half - sober hearts.

Trying to fill a void?
Maybe tame the passion?
Oh, that warm breath...
And you right next to me,
And that all felt so good to be true thought boy.

That was just like top of the world with you.
One night, thousand of broken thoughts.
They are now dying right inside me,
knowing i can't relive it again.
I can't force it.
When something wasn't meant to be mine.

~~~

That cruel morning lights,
through the frozen window
killed me nearly.
Dug an arrow just straight me,
All over my body even my mind,
When you were awake,
I tried to touch you a few times,
Slowly drawed a small pictures,
I knew you were already awake then,
you just ignored,
you just didn't care.
That moment I knew that night was a fuckin mistake.

How naive from me,
Hoping that you'll remember me.
How naive from you,
Hoping that I'll forget you.
So easily...

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I can't help
But why the hell I'm missing you(?)
With every single cell of
my body.
No one can hear it scream.
No ond can feel what it feels.
I know one day I'll get over this,
but till then i need to heal.
Alone.

When I'm laying in my bed,
I can't picture here nobody else,
'cause everytime I close my eyes,
I hope
it all hasn't ended yet.
I still see you there.
I feel you here.
Maybe we' ll meet in our dreams
Someday, somewhere.

Xoxo