16,000 miles to run

Ten

28 October 2012

Rebecca's POV

         Dan and I have begun counting down the days until we are together. We started at 200 days. So for right now, I am writing the first 100 and I'm going to send him them when we get to 100, and then he'll write the last 100 and give them to me when he gets here. That's the plan, we're gonna try it out. 

         The big discussion right now...is Christmas. I am going to send Dan some food and one other thing in a few days, just to test out how long it's going to take and how much it'll cost to send out the rest. I'm pretty excited for him to get his presents, and learn about mine. 

       Dan and I are getting close to being together for 6 months! This coming Sunday will be 6 months and I am very excited for it because once we get to 6 months...we only have 6 more to wait. And soon it'll be 5....4...3...2...1. 

         Right now he's living in a little town called Nyngan. We have tried since June to come up with ideas on when he's going to come here and how long. We still have a great deal to sort out. He needs to get his license before he gets his passport, and then we need to sort out visas. If he comes to America without a visa, then he can only stay in the country for 3 months....which kind of sucks, but we're still figuring it out. 

          So yeah, Nyngan. There is a library down the street from where he lives, he goes there to use the computers so we can skype. We get to talk on Skype about once a week for one hour. We went from talking every day for 3, 4, 5 + hours to almost talking none, so yes it's really hard but as they say, distance will make the heart grow fonder. 

        We tried Skype on his home computer for about a month, but the reception was awful and his computer crapped out on him anyways, so we just stuck with the library. I've met both of his parents now, over Skype, his mum a little less willingly than his dad, but it's okay. 

          Dan and I have come so far, it's crazy. I love him so much. We have done everything together. We have syncronized almost everything we've done. We have fallen asleep at the same time, eaten at the same time, worked at the same time and at the same registers.

        We have literally done it all. Every day, we tell each other how much we love each other. Every day when I wake up, I read at least 3 messages on facebook from him. Sweet messages about how much he loves me and how much he's looking forward to *insert countdown number here* 

          Right now we're down to 187 days. 

         Oh, and another thing. The time difference changed. In the beginning of the month, it jumped from 14 hours to 15. We were both worried that it would be much harder to talk, but actually it's been a little more convenient on both of our parts. 15 hours is a lot of hard work...and it's about to get a lot harder. 

          Next Sunday, the time difference will jump again. 16 hours. I don't know how I am going to feel about it...I guess we'll find out how it's going to work just like we did when it first changed to 15. 16 hours....I know that we've worked through so much but man...is it going to be hard. 

          16 hours. 

          16,000 miles.

          187 days. 

          I think that we can do it. I know that it's going to be worth it in the end. Honest to God, Daniel saved my life. I can't stress that enough. Without him, I would have ran away. I might not have killed myself but I sure as hell would have done anything to make sure I don't live much longer.

          I'm so glad that he found me, because I was giving up. I can't thank Dan enough for being my hero. I really can't. He's done so much for me and shown that he cares so much already...and I love it as much as I love him. 

          Daniel deserves to be happy, and I plan on making him as happy as he can possibly be every day for the rest of his life. I care about him so much more than I could even say.

         I seriously wish I could just forget everything, drop what I’m doing, buy a plane ticket to Sydney, get on a bus to Dubbo and then to Nyngan. No one will understand how insane I get at the thought that the only thing I want in this world, the only human I want so badly to hug and kiss and cuddle with and just be with lives sixteen thousand miles away.

        Daniel is the only thing on my mind right now… I just want to lay down in his arms and  have him wipe away my tears. I want to drive into the city lights with him where we can get lost together forever. All I want; no: All I need...is him. 

          187 days...