A Vague Reminder

Burying it

"If you try and make contact with Kingdom Hearts, the last thing you'll get is your life back. The Organization will destroy you." I gripped Oathkeeper tighter in my hand, teeming with anger. I didn't want to hurt Riku, but no matter how hard I tried, the events played out as they always did. The heavy metal of Oathkeeper always gleamed from the moonlight, right before I charged. "Enough!"  Clangs of sturdy metal, the cruel sound of it scraping and ricocheting made me flinch. I could see myself with an Organization coat, long enough to sweep against my ankles. The same dream, again. "Why? Why do you have the keyblade!?" I felt myself flinch, despite knowing I didn't have control, I called out to him. I wanted it to stop, why did I have to be reminded? Everything was fine now, right? I call out again, but my mouth refuses to open, I only feel the burning and the strain of my throat. "Shut up!" I charged at Riku, raising my keyblade over my head. Riku was strong, and fast, parrying my keyblade with enough strength that I was flung away. A memory flashed and I saw a sunset of red, sea salt ice cream, and the long drop off of the clock tower. The memory began to melt, bright colors fading into dark blues. " ...xas?" I was scared, I couldn't control my body. I'm not like this anymore- Another swing at Riku. I can't even control my own body- It feels like I'm- Like Sora is- " ...xas!" The image of the fight was ripped away from me leaving my body cold and confused. "Roxas!"

My eyes snap open, instinctively tensing my muscles. "Roxas...?" I clenched the thin fabric of Sora's shirt, the smell of sea salt and cinnamon tugging at my alerted nerves. I hadn't realized I was shaking. A wave of relief swept over me when I was able to feel my leg moving, I was also able to feel a hand rubbing my lower back. Even when my body relaxed I refused to let go of his shirt, I wanted to melt into him,  reassuring myself that now is not before. "Roxas, are you okay?" Sora's voice was low and quiet. My grip on his shirt loosened, and I pushed myself off of him feeling childish. "Sorry Sora, the rain is just getting to me..." I was hesitant to get off of the couch, instantly missing the contact and the feeling of his chest against mine when I moved an inch. "Well... Hey, we could always go somewhere else-" I felt his chest jump when his Gummiphone rang, I couldn't help but smile. "Uh- Hello?" He raised the phone up so whoever called could see his face clearly. "Yo! Sora."  Sora was still laying down, resting his head against the arm of the couch. I was now extremely grateful I'd moved, or Axel would never let me hear the end of it.
"Oh! Roxas, c'mere! It's Axel. So, why are you calling?" I sat on the floor, in between the couch and the coffee table. Sora scooted towards the edge of the couch to fit me into frame, and I was suddenly aware of the fact that I was wearing Sora's shirt. "Ohh~ So you stole Roxas! I was wondering why he didn't call me y'know, I guess he was busy with his somebody." He was trying to tease me, and frankly, it worked too well. Sora chuckled, obviously he didn't understand Axel's intentions, not that Roxas understood much better, only that Axel was once again implying Roxas had a 'thing' for Sora. "Hey, he's not that bad! I actually enjoy his company. I was thinking of going to another world today, Roxas said the rain was starting to-" I cleared my throat, taking the Gummiphone, and shooting Axel and unimpressed look. "Axel, don't bully him, besides, we told Riku and Kairi we'd call them when we were ready." I tilted my head. Xion was with Axel, I guess they had some kind of group activity planned. "Why not invite Sora? He'll act like a sad puppy-" I heard Sora shift behind me, finally sitting up. "Ah- Well, Riku said he wasn't allowed, under any circumstance. No Mr.Hero! Got it mem-" I glared at the screen, abruptly hanging up on Axel. I held back the urge to sigh, Sora had obviously heard every word, which meant I would have to cheer him up. Well, not that Sora ever seemed down, the only time Sora's heart ever seemed to sway was when his friends were in trouble, or when he'd learned of Roxas himself. When I turned to face Sora, I was shocked to see him look so sad. His smile was thin, eyes heavy. "Geez... Riku tries every year... Well-" He shook his head, glancing to me. "Where do you wanna go? It's your call today."