Let's Pretend it's Love

Chapter 17~ Everything Has Changed

HANNAH'S POV

Five more days until things will have to change.

Five more days until Mary and I have to leave and I have to pretend like Niall and I never had a fling. Why? Because nothing is going to happen between us. He's going to be gone and so am I. Even our friendship has been fading. Ever since Mary and Liam made it official. I don't know why, but it just did.

He can't even look me in the eyes anymore. I just want to go home now. He's making it so hard for me to keep sane around everyone.

I know we were never in love or even in a relationship, but he made me feel like I was beautiful, happy and even worthy. I didn't think anyone could do that. It kills me because knowing that he made me feel this way, I wonder how long our relationship would even last...

If we ever had one.

I guess it's time to move on from something that's never going to happen and something that never even happened in the first place.

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"I'm want to go out, anyone want to join me?" Niall asked.

We were all bored out of our minds. Liam and Mary were on a date and the rest of us were left home alone with food and the tv. It was hell.

"I am!" Louis jumped up and high fived the little blonde boy.

"Count me in, bitches." Harry tried to sound cool, but failed because well, he isn't.

"I'll be the designated one, its my turn." Zayn shrugged.

All the boys, except Niall, looked at me, giving me the puppy dog eyes.

"I'm fine. I'm not in the mood." I gave them a weak smile.

"Please Hannah! I am begging you!" Louis dropped on his hands and knees and started to bow down to me.

"It's fine. You four have fun. I'll stay and do stuff." Way to cover that one up.

"Fine." Zayn huffed.

"I'll miss you, babe!" Harry winked and left a slobbery kiss on my cheek.

Niall sighed and walked out of the room. What a douche.

"What's up his ass?" Harry asked.

"Like I have a clue." I snapped back.

"We should be asking the same question to you too." Zayn raised one of his eyebrows.

"Is there trouble in paradise?" Louis kept dragging on the subject.

"Ask him, because I don't have answer." I really just wanted them all to leave now.

"I will. Call me if you need anything." Zayn kissed my cheek.

"No. Call me. I'm more handsome." Harry winked and followed Zayn out of the room.

"I'm here for you babe." Louis reminded me before he left.

I waited until I could hear the door shut before I got up and went to get my headphones. I grabbed my iPod and put on some Taylor Swift.

This hope is treacherous. This daydream is dangerous.

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NIALL'S POV

How can I love someone, who doesn't love me back? Answer is, you can't. It's impossible. Well, that's what I'm trying to convince myself. I still love her even though she's avoiding me. It's hard. I want to run up and kiss her and call her mine, but I can't. It's pretty damn obvious she doesn't want to be around me anymore. I don't know what I did, but if she wants space, I'll give it to her. I'd give her anything if I could.

"Niall, where the hell did you go?" I heard Harry's husky voice down the hall.

After Hannah said she didn't want to come, I had to sit down and breathe for a bit. I don't know why but we haven't been talking or even acknowledging each other.

"I'm right here, mate." I stood up and found the rest of them.

"You're a dip shit and I hope you know that." Zayn scoffed as he walked passed me.

"What the?" I was so confused. What the hell did I do?

Louis gave me a knowing look and rolled his eyes as he followed Zayn.

"Niall, fix it. Now." Harry pointed back to the hallway where our room was in.

"What the fuck did I do!?"

"Why don't you figure that out with the girl who is now staying in the room alone tonight because she's upset about you." Louis gave me a glare.

"Shit." I cursed under my breath.

"Don't lose her over a stupid mistake, mate." Zayn continued to keep walking.

I ran back to the room, taking the boys advice. I put the key into the door and peeked inside of the room. I saw nothing at first. I walked down the hallway and looked inside of the bedroom.

I found Hannah laying down, all cuddled in to the covers. I heard her sniffle like she was crying. My heart dropped. I can't believe I'm such an arse and didn't realize I'm the one doing this to her.

I walked up to the bed and sat down next to her. I had no idea how to start off our conversation. I rubbed her back, trying to get her to notice I was there. She jumped at my touch and turned around, meeting my gaze. Her eyes were puffy and showed sadness in them.

"What are you doing here?" She sounded surprise but I could also tell she was angry.

"I came here to apologize. I'm sorry I haven't talked to you or even tried to. I just thought you were mad at me, so I gave you space. Hannah, I promise I'll never do it again. I'm sorry. It was a stupid mistake because I'm stupid and made a mistake." I kept rambling on while she looked at me.

"Niall. Shut up and let me talk." She finally spoke.

"You haven't been normal lately with me, so I gave you space. It sucked, yes, but it made me realize some things. It killed me to not talk to you for a couple of days, so what happens when you leave to go on tour? I don't think I'm going to be able to keep contact with you. It's going to tear me apart."

"Hannah, I promise you, I'm not going to leave you."

"How do I know that for sure though?" She looked so upset.

"I can prove it to you." I smiled. I had something up my sleeve.

"Go for it." She looked sort of worried.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" That completely just slipped out of my mouth. I was going to tell her that she was my best friend and that I couldn't live without her. Holy shit, Niall, what the fuck did you just do?

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HANNAH'S POV

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

What just happened? My breath hitched and got caught in my throat. I couldn't speak I was speechless. I thought he hated me and didn't want to speak with me.

I wanted to say yes, but my head was telling me to say no. I liked him a lot, but I didn't want to be hurt. But I guess, only time will tell.

"Y-yes." I smiled at him.

His face just turned into worried into the happiest I've seen him. He jumped up and tackled me and gave me a hug.

"I'm sorry, Hannah. That will never happen again. I promise." He kissed my cheek.

"Stop apologizing, Niall." I laughed at him.

He smiled and pulled me in tighter into him, if that was possible.

"Come on, love. Let's go to bed." Niall grabbed my waist and kissed my forehead before I fell asleep in his arms.