Precious and the Crush

Travis?

Takuma's POV

It's been two days since I spoke to Travis and I feel anxious. Maybe it was a mistake and he never wanted to speak to me? What the fuck. Not again! I keep having these thoughts about Travis when I like my crush, Diran. Damn it!

I go back and forth, trying to tell myself to not like Travis, I can't. I don't like him and I don't want to. I like Diran, my bully. Goddamn it.

I'm just sitting under the tree with my lunch when I feel a pat on my shoulder. I look up.

BADUMP.

My heart skips a beat. It's Travis. Fuck.

"Hey, Takuma," he says, sitting down next to me. I try not to cry. This guy didn't lie after all.

"H-Hi...Travis," I stutter out.

"How is your day?" He asks, leaning in.

"It's good... How about you?" I struggle to ask back. Me and my unsocial ass.

"It's eh. But okay I guess. What are you up to?" He asks, looking at me.

"Just eating lunch. What are you doing?" I say, feeling my heart beat.

"Just bothering you," he says with a grin. I can't help but smile at that. He would come and do that much.

"Thanks. I like that," I say shyly. I look away because I feel a blush rise.

"Then I'll do it a lot more if you like it," he suggests. I nod my head, smiling.

I look at him. He looks at me. He squints his eyes and I do that back. He pulls me into a side hug. I put my hand on his arm, keeping a hold on it. I missed him...

"Oh. I see how it is now. Wow," Taro says, surprising both of us. We pull away. I blush.

Taro sits down next to me. "No need to do that, I'm just sitting here. Continue on," he says loudly, diving into his food. Me and Travis just look at each other. I shrug my shoulders, flipping my friend off. Travis smiles.

"Well, how were your classes?" He asks. I shrug my shoulders, "they're okay. But boring," I say, taking a bite of food. "How about you?" I ask after swallowing my food.

"They're good. Although I'm most likely failing. But it's whatever," he shrugs off. I just stare at him. This dude. I look around and spot my crush. He is actually walking this way with his three friends. Fuck!

Travis looks in the same direction after seeing me just stare. Diran looks at me but doesn't do anything. He just walks past with talking to his friends...

Even if he does beat me up, at least he seemed like he cared before... I'm deeply hurt. And I don't know what to do...

Taro puts a hand on my back, knowing exactly how I'm feeling and why. Travis watches. I shake my head.

"Are you sure I'm not annoying? If you have your own friends, I don't want to be a bother..." I say, feeling stupid. "No. I mean, they are fine without me right now. I'm bored and I wanted to see you. So don't worry about that," he says, patting my arm. I nod.

We talk a bit more but then he has to get back to his table, so we say bye. I'm sad after that. Taro keeps me company.

Not much happens after lunch. I do see Travis twice and both times he comes over to hug me. I feel special. Although I know that is probably stupid of me to think.

I get home and I just collapse. I can't not think of him. But I scold myself because I've spent my three years crushing on Diran, not Travis. So why does my mind like him so much? It's because he gives me attention, right? Ugh.

I text Taro my conflicted thoughts. He says it's probably best to like someone who won't bear me up. I defend Diran by saying he patches me up, but he still goes for Travis. I just sigh.

TK: I just...don't know. I like Travis. But I also can't forget Diran...
TO: But Diran has not been trying to speak to you lately. I think it's best to go for Travis if he is giving you attention.
TK: I guess...
TO: Don't worry about it. Just go with the flow.
TK: That's hard to do.
TO: Not really. Just keep doing what you have been and see who tries to be your friend. It'll
Work out.
TK: Yeah, with no one...
TO: It'll be alright.
TK: Alright...
TO: Gotta go to bed. Text you in the morning. Have a good night!
TK: Ah, okay. Good night. Sleep well!

I put away my phone and sigh. I hate this.

I look on Instagram and check up on Diran. He hasn't been on for a while. Yeah, we follow each other and had a brief conversation...before

I look around and...wait...

I find...no way...

I find Travis's Instagram account! I think hard though. I gave a lot of thought into following Diran's account...but I hardly know Travis. It won't be weird if I follow, right? I just mindlessly follow him, not caring. He won't even know it's me.

I look through other posts for a while when I hear a ding...

I scream internally.

He followed me back! Fuck!

I wait for 30 minutes to see if he'll start a conversation. He doesn't. Fuck. My heart is dying. I decide to put my phone away and go to sleep. Stupid Travis and his affection. Ugh.

I grab my stuff animal and get under the blankets. I put on soft music and go to sleep...