Walking through the rain

Love yourself

Samantha's Pov

Why is it that now a days we hardly feel, we never take the time to ask if someone is ok, it's hard to love when you don't even have the time to love yourself. Truth is that we are so caught up in are own world we don't even have time to live in the real one, is it so hard to act like human beings for once, I've been through hard situations but I at least try to stay happy no matter what that's something I learned the hard way. I've seen people go through worse and they still manage to smile when they get out of this hospital. It's been two weeks since Kimberly left, it makes me sad that I can't talk to her about what happened, she took it hard and now I don't even know how she is or what she's feeling.

Today has been a rough day at the hospital, they brought in a old lady that had a heart condition, she didn't have long but she is a fighter, she's been in and out of this hospital so many times she knows all the nurses by their nicknames. She's a sweet lady, the doctor calls me over and says "Ms. Rosetta wants you to attend her", I was surprised but I head to her room, I've attended her before and she was so kind, I was wondering why she wanted to see me in particular. As soon as I walk in I see her smile, she says "wow you have grown so much since I've been here" I smile and rub her hand "thank you Rosetta", I then ask her "why did you want me to attend you this time Rosetta?" She answers with a warm smile on her face "I know I don't have long to live and you are the sweetest nurse here but as soon as they brought me in I could tell that something is troubling you", she grabs my hand as I'm checking her blood pressure and says "Sam I've been in this hospital so many times and every time you manage to have a smile on your face, you even make the sickest patients smile, what's wrong?" I explain what was going on with me and Kimberly, she listened to every word.

After I was done and I was about to leave Rosetta says "wait a second dear, I'm going to give you some advice, remember it doesn't matter how hard the situation is, it's how you handle it what counts, there isn't a battle that you can't win but sometimes we have to loose in order to have the knowledge to win". I give Rosetta a hug "thank you Rosetta that means a lot", she replies "no thank you Sam you are a damn good person, the world needs more people like you", before I could say anything she says "thank you for giving me such a meaningful last conversation". I start to tear up, I say "the hardest part of this job is saying goodbye but it was my pleasure talking with such a wise women like yourself". She closes her eyes and says "thank you my dear", I walk out of the room to get a some water, the doctor pats me on the shoulder and asks "are you ok?" I nod my head "yea I'm alright".

As my shift was ending it was like 12:30 am, I punch my card in so I could go and get a late night donut, I sit there watching TV as I'm eating my donut, It's freezing in this Dunkin donuts, it was empty just me and the employees, suddenly I get a text from the doctor saying that Rosetta passed away. I read that text twice remembering that last conversation between me and Rosetta, I could see a lot of my mom in Rosetta they both were wise and smart, maybe that's why it hurt to see her go, it was like loosing my mom again. Everything happens for a reason, I may not understand that reason but I just have to deal with it. We can learn something from people like Rosetta, that if we see the best in people they will see the best in you.