Beautiful Memories || Namjoon ff || 16+

1. The Book

*flashback*

"Y/n, I love you~ will you be mine?"

*present day*

Ding! the alarm went off as you take the tray of pastries out of the oven.
You glanced up at the clock above you.
06:35 p.m.
Sighing heavily, you sat down and waited for Namjoon to get back.
Just then, the doorbell rang.
You immediately rushed to the door smiling to yourself.
As you turned the doorknob, you were suddenly greeted with a light peck on the cheek as Namjoon walked in.

"How was work?" You asked him right after he tossed his tie on the nearby couch and loosened his collar.
No reply from him but a deep, heavy sigh of exhaustion.
He plopped down on the couch and switched the TV on.
Seeing he wasn't paying attention to you, you walked over to him and asked again. But he still didn't answer and proceeded watching.

"Namjoonie ah~" you said while waiting for him to notice you standing in front of him.
"Hello?"
You started waving your hand in front of his face to get his attention.
He sighed while leaning back and looking up at you.

"Yes, sweetheart?"
He was trying his best to sound sweet, but you could tell from his slightly pale face and eye bags he wasn't getting enough sleep.

"You must be really tired."
you said with a pout.
Without another word, he patted an empty spot near him; gesturing for you to sit down.
As you approach him, he suddenly pulled you onto his lap; turning you around so you would face him.
You looked at him and he looked back at you.

Then without warning, he leaned in...
... and placed a soft kiss on your lips while you blush lightly.
Although you were a bit shocked, you kissed him back while he kept pulling you closer to him.
"I missed you~" he said as he deepened the kiss.
You smiled at his soft, soothing voice and gently broke the kiss, looking deeply into his loving eyes.
"I missed you too~"

After a while, you both were in the kitchen.
You noticed Namjoon barely touching his food.
"What's wrong?" you asked. "Aren't you hungry?"
He just looked up at you with a weak smile and answered,
"Of course I am. It's just that..."
he paused.
"I've been getting headaches recently"
He said with an uncertain look.
You looked at him strangely as he massaged his nose bridge and continued to take another bite before getting up and walking over to clean.
You decided to help, but he was already done and walked upstairs to get changed.
After everything was finished, you went upstairs to meet him lying on the bed with his eyes glued to the ceiling.
You quietly crept over to your side of the bed and tucked yourself in.
Namjoon however, didn't even spare a glance at you.
He was lost in thought.
You looked at him and could feel him watching you from the corner of his eye, but he kept quiet and just laid there without moving a muscle.
Looking at his beautiful face one last time, you rolled over on your side so that your back was facing him and drifted off to sleep.
As soon as he felt you sleeping soundly beside him, he turned to face you...
...with tears in his eyes, he whispered;

"Y/n, please don't leave me... i-i can't live without you."

Those soft words floated in the air and suddenly, they drifted past your ears and you slowly opened your eyes.
You then heard someone silently crying, and you knew it was Namjoon.
Your heart ached for him but you didn't move.
Why is he crying? you thought.
Was it something you did?
Was it something you said?
You didn't know. All you knew was that, he was scared. Scared that you might leave him, that you'll go away and never return.
But you were curious why he said that all of a sudden.
You didn't get much sleep after that, neither did he.
Throughout the night you just laid there listening to his silent cries.
It was heartbreaking.
The night slowly passed and it was soon morning.