...He Won't...

...her paradise...

Every morning she sat in the school bus with the hope of smile and a little glimpse of imagination. May be today..

What if I saw him today. The reddish blush on her face was even noticed by birds that seems to be praying too with her in their melodious voice. Every night she slept with a smile thinking about him, talking to him, trying to have a romantic conversation or imagine a bollywood scene together.

She tried to copy him in every possible way she could. From biting her nails to seeking for same career options. She once heard that Kundan was talking about his future goals and he said "astronaut scientist" and now she wants to be an astronaut scientist too.

A pure and innocent connection without any desire. The only desire was to wake up with a smile and even the thought of seeing him in the school make her day exciting. she didn't know what was this. Actually we all didn't know what was going on with us too in the beginning. It was something that can only make us happy, that feeling of being in love with someone for the first time when you have no clue about it.... It's exactly same as the smile of a new born baby no matter what we face in our life, what we are heading to but for few seconds we forget everything and we smile with them... seeing they are enjoying their best phase of life .

But Nandita was on her next phase. She was in love with someone for the first time. She didn't know the abusive, frustrating and the power of this hazardous disease that could burn one's soul inside their body until you feel nothing.

That's what first love is about, discovering feelings.. for all of us that was a forever and ever bond in our dreams that even today has the power to make us smile. They said one could never forget their first love. I think they were right no-one could...

Days passed by and now Nandita was more worried about Kundan. There was no sign of him from the last 3 weeks. It was her hobby to struggle for him, for his attention, for the sudden eye contact and a glimpse of miracle. He became her habit, he became her weakness, he was her desire to whom she admire.

After 25 days of no sign of him she finally heard his name by one of his friends. "Kundan is here in the school office"

Nandita was on the seventh cloud finally he was here. Then the other one said " yes he is leaving our school. His family is shifting again , he might be here for his TC"

"LEAVING OUR SCHOOL !!!! HIS TC!!!" Nandita exclaimed her eyes were wide open and she couldn't feel anything. She decided to run to the office to see him but what would he think about her. After all wh0 was she for him ?

A girl he never talked to. The only relationship they had was that they were classmates. She never knew that one day it will end ... it will end forever for her. She wanted to save her paradise but she couldn't do anything to fix the falling pieces of her picture perfect love. One of them said again " I think we should go and meet him for the last time"

"for the last time???" Nandita couldn't bear it anymore she immediately decided to join them Divya being her best friend didn't want to leave her alone but she was still confused by her behavior unaware of her love for him. Nandita was trying to hold her tears and decided to give herself a chance. A chance to her paradise.

" we can exchange numbers." She thought, we would be in touch (at that time social media wasn't popular and most of the students were unaware of it's existence)

She went to the office... Kundan just came out with a sheet of paper might be his TC. She wanted to ignore everything and decided to confess

Before she could say something Kundan saw her and started walking towards her. Her heart and eyes couldn't believe it. She could clearly see his watery eyes he was covering with his smile, she wanted to say something but her voice chocked , her heart might had skipped a beat.

" I wanted to say these things to you from a very long time" kundan said. Nandita couldn't feel her heart anymore she was numb this was the moment she was waiting for may be she could save the picture now she dreamt of.

And he continued " I like you Divya, I want to be in touch with you may be we could exchange numbers?"

The new school bus stopped in the parking. Her eyes were watery she somehow managed to stop them and when she was about to enter the school gate she heard the ring of cycle bell. She couldn't dare to turn around and look back because she knew this time even if she love him HE WON'T.