Constellation

14. Health & Healing SUBIN

January 2015

In the midst of all of the comeback preparations, performances and interviews, Subin could barely find the time to meet up with Sigma when they finally arrived back in Korea for the first time since October; of course, their debut had been a huge success and they had gained a lot of popularity, so they had stayed in the country longer than planned.

The first afternoon that Subin had off, she went to track down Kin, the oldest girl in Sigma, lead dancer and token Chinese member, who she was good friends with. The plan was to pick up some food from their favourite restaurant and then settle in the park and catch up on what had been going on in each other’s lives while they hadn’t been in contact. 

“Are none of the others coming?” Kin asked Subin as the two strolled down the path towards the restaurant that they had chosen to buy from. There were a few fans who recognised them along the way who had waved and smiled, but aside from that, it was turning out to be quite a peaceful day.

“No, they wanted to do some other things today,” Subin informed her friend. “Eunjung is hanging out with Kyungsoo sunbae and Jimin is with her boyfriend.”

“And you didn’t want to be around the others, huh?” Kin asked, half-teasing. “I can understand the feeling.”

Subin frowned at the Chinese girl. “What do you mean, Mei*? Are you having issues with Sigma?”

The older girl hesitated slightly before answering, and when she did, her voice was pitched at a whisper. “I don’t think they really like me. I don’t get many lines in the songs, which is because I’m the lead dancer and I understand that, I really do, but even then, the others don’t really include me. Do you think it’s because I’m... Well... Not Korean or Japanese?” she asked uncertainly.

Subin was angry upon hearing this; she really thought that Sigma were above this, were better than ostracising Meihui just because she was Chinese. Honestly, there was no excuse for their behaviour. 

“If it is, then they’re absolutely stupid,” the rapper raged. “What where you’re from has to do with how they treat you, I do not know. I mean, Eunjung is from England and Chaerin is from America and none of us make them feel left out!”

“I think sometimes they forget that I exist,” Kin admitted. “It’s kind of hurtful .They do it with Minjung-ah too, but I think that is more to do with the fact that she came into the group last. They blame her for us not debuting when you guys did, which is stupid, because Minjung was working really hard. You saw how she was that day that were were told we wouldn't be debuting with you guys - she was absolutely devastated. If it had just been Min letting us down, we still would have debuted, which means that other people must have been not working hard enough,” Kin reasoned. “So I really think my members need to stop putting the blame on us when it’s obvious that this is a team effort.”

“They sure do sound like they’ve changed,” Subin muttered as they entered the restaurant. “I swear, Bokyung never used to be that bitchy.”

“She didn’t,” the dancer agreed. “Since she’s become the leader, she’s really become someone else. Like, you know how she used to be just like Eunjung? She keeps trash talking Polaris and moaning about your popularity while we’ve had to work extra hard for ours - like she doesn’t think that you guys have had to slave away to be liked. All she does is moan about what a hard job being the leader is and it really winds me up.”

“Don’t you ever say anything to her?” Subin questioned, taking a menu and looking through the dishes in an attempt to find something that would jump out at her to buy. “Like, don’t you ever tell her that she’s being a bitch?”