Constellation

7. Obsession SUBIN

November 2014

With their comeback approaching, Subin was worried out of her mind. True, she wasn't the leader of POLARIS, as Jimin kept on reminding her, but she was still the oldest in the group and that meant that she carried some responsibilities. It was well known that she sometimes took on some of Eunjung's job without meaning to, such as bossing the younger members around or telling the leader herself what to do; it was something that she couldn't turn off, as she had meant to be the group's leader before Eunjung was chosen. 

After seeing how things had been going in the kpop world lately, Subin was terrified that something would go wrong, only adding to the growing list of scandals that were accumalating for SM Entertainment. To be honest, she was still surprised at the fact that their debut had been so well-recieved, considering everything that had been against them at the time. And as far as the public knew, POLARIS were as close as sisters, though they had all witnessed many heated conversations and full-out screaming fits (usually between Jimin and Chaerin, who seemed to grate on each others nerves quite a lot). The incident that stood out in particular to Subin was the one that mild, quiet Gayoon had initiated with Eunjung, who was a real sweetheart. The lead rapper couldn't quite believe what she had seen, even months later. The two had agreed silently to not talk about it, yet there had been no apologies. It made for an awkward moment whenever they got annoyed with each other.

Most days, though, they were very close, though not like sisters - more like a bunch of friends, and not necessarily close friends at that. They often stayed as a group to do things like eating and watching TV, but it wasn't uncommon for Jimin to take off without so much as a word to meet up with her boyfriend (Jimin, Eunjung and Seohyeon, who had overheard the conversation, had refused to tell the others who he was). Even Chaerin, who seemed the type to want to stay with the group, had gone out a few times, presumably to visit old friends or family. Eunjung had a habit of staying at the studio for extended hours, determined to get her vocals right and Seohyeon barely left the practice room, being lead dance. Gayoon had taken to locking herself in her and Eunjung's shared room at the dorm (effectively locking Eunjung out, which always caused a ten minute struggle before bed for the leader to be able to get into her room to sleep) to practice her vocals. The biggest surprise, however, was Jimin. The visual was usually the biggest perfectionist out of the six of them, but she had skipped a few practices that week, which was odd. 

Subin, therefore, was left trying to find somewhere to improve her vocal and rap parts for the new songs. She had enlisted the help of SHINee's Minho a few times, as she had trouble focusing on learning her lines anywhere other than the practice room (which was always occupied by Seohyeon when Subin needed it). She had even desperately accepted Suho's offer to use the EXO dorm when they were away in China for their concerts to practice. 

So now, barely two months away from their comeback, Subin had kicked the maknae out of the practice room, as she had thoughtlessly neglected her dance practice in order to perfect her rap. She was still struggling with one of the more complicated steps. 

Frustated, she restarted the track and walked to the centre of the room, focusing on her reflection in the mirror in front of her. She had to get this right, otherwise she would be the only member who hadn't got it, which was embarassing when you considered the fact that Eunjung was the worst dancer in the group and she had learned it pretty much the day it had been shown to them. Subin didn't know what it was about the sequence that she couldn't quite get right, but there it was, right when the second half of the chorus began. She stumbled to the side and glared at her reflection.

"Oh! Sorry, I didn't know anybody was in here!"

The rapper's head snapped up to the voice and stared uncomprehendingly at the figure standing in the doorway awkwardly.