You Sent Me | k. jennie x m. lisa

email #7

to: lalisa pranpriya manoban
from: jennie rubjane kim

after 3 years of having each other, those years were the best for me. it's like, for 3 years, someone made me feel loved. someone actually cared for me. at least, for once, i had you with me.

but there's always an end in everything. just like how our story came into crumbling walls. at the night of the 23rd of september, i didn't said anything and did what i thought will be the best for us.

you knew about my parents' death, and how i was all alone and depressed. you were there, every night to comfort me. you would call me and sing me disney songs just to cheer me up.

lisa, i don't know what was ahead of us, and i didn't thought about our future. i'm really sorry. remember the night of 23rd, i called you and we met. it was one of the most heartbreaking night of my life. even if i'm away, the memories of the night still hunts me, as if even after death, the pain will always be there, stuck.

i hate to see you cry, down on your knees, begging for me to take back my words. but i couldn't think of anything at that moment. my mind went blank. i didn't want to see tears flowing down your cheeks, because i might just end up in your arms. i was a coward and never believed the things you could do for me, lisa. i'm deeply sorry. i hope you had already shook the pain away, i hope your happy now.

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"hey baby?" lisa's voice filled the empty room where jennie was standing.

i always wanted to be beside you.

"are you busy?" jennie's voice was cold, it wasn't the usual tone she uses whenever she talks with lisa.

please tell me you are, please.

"uh, not really. i was done mostly of my projects. what's wrong? do you want me to come over?" lisa noticed the change on her lover's tone, but she thought that maybe jennie wasn't still over with her parents' death.

please decline, please, lisa.

"i want to meet you at the university, dance studio." the brunette said as she took some deep sighs, staring at the clock ticking.

let's remember how we first met.

"wha... what's with the sudden meet up there? i can come to you house, you know." lisa chuckled but as soon as she heard jennie scoffed, she sensed something was off.

i want to tell how much i love you.

"i'll be there at 5, i'll be waiting." jennie didn't wait for lisa's response. she quickly took her jacket and wore it. before exiting the house, she went to the fridge first and drank water.

jennie heard faint footsteps getting closer, she closed her eyes and took a deep sigh.

"baby?" she turned around and saw lisa with a frown on her face. "are you okay?" jennie couldn't help but to feel her stomach twitching, her hands became sweaty despite of the cold weather.

her breathe became shaky and the lump on her throat started to form. "hey? is there anything wrong? tell me." lisa stepped forward, ready to hug the older.

"let's stop." jennie mumbled, but she was sure lisa heard it.

"what? stop from what? i don't get it." lisa's forehead creased.

no, don't tell me that jennie. lisa thought as she was having hints of what was going, she became pale and unable to move.

"let's breakup. i'm done, i'm sorry." jennie cuts the chase and turned the other way, but a cold touch was wrapped around her wrist.

"why?" lisa asked as a single tear left her eye. "please tell me. am i not enough? where did it went wrong? baby, let's fix this." she was close to begging, but she didn't care anymore even if she looked pathetic.

"me. i am not enough. that's all i would say, goodbye lisa." and with that, jennie didn't bother to glance at lisa, she felt her knees wobbling, but she has to get out of the place as soon as possible.

"jennie!" lisa screamed as she was on her knees. the excruciating pain hugged her as she cried in agony.

she was left. she left her without a reason. nothing. not even a single because.

she didn't believed jennie, she knew there's something wrong.

until the current day, lisa haven't knew jennie's real reason. she still wondered about it. it's been 5 years since they separated, but the scar was still there, and it seemed to be unhealed, and will never be.