After what hennessy told me all i've been feeling is pain.
I'm hurt. Hearing that hennessy was raped made me angry but Getting told that we lost the baby just made me wanna break down but i knew i couldn't because i hate showing emotion.
That's the type of hurt that make you just wanna give up on everything.
and the crazy party about it is we didn't even know she was pregnant.
Like this whole relationship happened so fast it's crazy.
We probably moved to fast with eachother.
And she just acting like she the only one who hurt like i just lost a baby too how do you think that makes me feel.
She didn't even ask me if i was ok.
I'm always the one checking up on her and making sure she straight.
I'm not even saying that's as like i hate doin that it's just that i'm always the one who is making sure people straight and nobody really checks on my mental health and how i feel.
I been there for hennessy from the beginning just like when she was in that coma i stayed in new york for two extra weeks missing out on plays making sure she straight because i care and i didn't have to do that.
And i see she been through a lot these past few months but she not the only one that's having issues.
Like i never speak on is or anything but i have PTSD.
When i was younger my mother was gunned down right infront of our project complex while me and the other kids was playing outside. We didn't hear shit from her boyfriend after she died it's like he just fell of the face of earth.
Sometimes when gun shots go off all i see in my head is my mother body drop and her blood coming out her mouth as she gasped for air.
That's hard to talk about and i hate even thinking about it.
Amani took it a little better than me but i know when she still hurt by it and i still am too.
