♕𝕡𝕒𝕪𝕥𝕠𝕟 𝕞𝕠𝕠𝕣𝕞𝕖𝕚𝕖𝕣♕

★⋆j͜͡e͜͡a͜͡l͜͡o͜͡u͜͡s͜͡ p͜͡t͜͡. 3͜͡ ⋆★

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𝚢/𝚗'𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚟

He leaned in and kissed me. I kissed him back. 

i can't believe i just kissed kio. god dammit y/n. so fucking stupid. wait why am i still kissing him? i pull away from kio.

"i- i'm sorry y/n, i didn't mean to."

he said while tears were forming in his eyes and mine.

"so, it's not your fault. and I kissed you back s-" 

"you what?" 

i knew that voice that interrupted me. payton was standing there with red puffy eyes.

"nononono. it's not what it sounds like" 

i said while payton just stood there with tears streaming down his face.

"so y'alls lips just 'accidentally' made fucking contact?"

 i started tearing up, while payton was walking to his room and i followed him.

"no- fuck I can't do this!" 

i screamed while payton closed his door. Then I realized what I just said and froze, payton stood there in shock. 

"what? you can't do what? keep your lips away from other guys and close your legs? you fucking slut!" 

i stood there balling my eyes out and in shock realizing what he just said.

"no- that's not what I mean-" 

he said with his eyes full of regret.

"no i was saying that i cant't do long distance anymore and i was supposed to move down to L.A. next month. that's why i came here. and that i can't stand seeing you sad, especially if i'm the one that made you sad." 

i sobbed out. He was crying even harder.  

"i'm sorry i didn't mean to" 

he said while crying really hard. 

"payton... i think we should take a break for a little bit."

 i said while wiping my tears and making him look at me in the eyes. 

"no. please. i don't want to be away from you." 

he said while i hugged him, and he hugged me back. 

"i just think that's what will be the best for us right now." 

i said. i kissed him and looked at him in the eyes. 

"ok."

 he said, we hugged for 5 minutes just taking in his presence for a little longer. then i left his room and went to josh's room , he wasn't in there, so i went to anthony's and him, josh, and bryce were in there filming a teatok video. 

"aww y/n. come here bub" 

josh said. i walked over to him and sat on his lap while hugging him. 

"you're going to be okay, don't worry. don't tell me now, because i know your not ready to tell me. okay?" 

he whispered in my ear.

"okay." 
i said quietly, he hugged me tighter. and continued they video. 

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edited: 8/17/20

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