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𝕐𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕚𝕥𝕤 𝕞𝕒𝕙 𝕓𝕕𝕒𝕪 𝕟 𝕚 𝕛𝕦𝕤𝕥 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕟𝕒 𝕥𝕒𝕘 𝕟 𝕤𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕞𝕪 𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕔𝕜 𝕓𝕪 𝕞𝕪 𝕤𝕚𝕕𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕣𝕦 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕔𝕜 𝕟 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕘𝕚𝕧𝕖𝕧𝕒 𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕖𝕔𝕙 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕙𝕠𝕨 𝕚 𝕨𝕒𝕟𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕪𝕖𝕒𝕣 𝕥𝕠 𝕘𝕠 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕘𝕚𝕧𝕖 𝕪𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖 𝕠𝕗 𝕞𝕪 𝕒𝕕𝕧𝕚𝕔𝕖.
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I have so much I wanna say I'm finna get emotional 😭
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𝓘, 𝓒𝓱𝓻𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓪𝓷 𝓖𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓶𝔂 𝔃𝓹𝓮𝓮𝓬𝓱:
So I'm finally 15, time really does go by fast. I've experienced all kinds of heartbreak, blackmail, and plans gone wrong. But I survived and found myself again, deep down I'll always be suicidal but everyday I do as much as I can to manage my psychosis for those I love and care about. It's a new chapter in my life I'm starting, with the friends that have stuck by my side as I was going through some of the worst things anyone could emotionally experience. Being 14, I realized there isn't always such things as loyalty, happy endings, or forever. All things come to an end, and sometimes it's best not to know that or else you could be the cause of your own unforever like I was. I wish for you guys not to make the same mistakes I did. So please listen carefully to what I'm about to tell you. If you have trust issues, sit your ass there with your significant other and talk it out. Don't play any tricks on them especially if there already damaged and they love u so hard. Like that's fucked up playing with peoples true love like that. Second, don't da anyone who's suicidal, you have a 200% chance of ending up just like them. You will end up cutting yourself on their broken pieces, they will bleed on you and stain you with their contaminated blood. So don't date anyone who's suicidal or a major (long story). Third, if someone can't accept you for who you are, then that's their problem, not yours. It's not your job in life to please people or change yourself for someone who can't accept the true you. Especially if u change into something they like and then they throw u away and say "idk u" like ppl, can't get faker than that believe me. Fourth, silent treatment is for babies, and I think we're all way past that age. If there's a problem between your family or friendship group or relationship or whatever, act ur age and talk it out. Istg I'm 15 and I'm smarter than most people 😒 because if u give someone the "silent treatment", YOU will cause them to act out in odd or mean ways to get ur attention. Y'all be blind af, grow up smh it's 2020. If u try to talk and things don't seem to be working, then y'all should disband not drag on the drama like immature 5th graders. Some ppl just don't know what loyalty and history are.  Fifth, don't attack people without a valid ass reason (if they attacked u or ur close friends) and if a fight don't involve u mind ur business cus then that just makes the fire bigger and the drama more unbearable. Get to a calm isolated area and work things out between the two originally fighting don't be dragging people into it and having then choose sides and having a divided war. Sixth, never make a choice when you're in love or if your jealous. The outcomes can cost you dearly, would you be willing to sacrifice what you have to achieve your ambitions? Always remember the people who were there for you from the beginning, because family isn't just about being blood related. The best family you can get is the one you choose, the group of friends who support you for being gay and genderfluid when your real parents don't.
So I want to live to make me and those I love happy, I'm no longer going to strive for people to like me or change myself. If u can't accept me the way I am it's yo lil problem babe. And I don't want to hurt anyone without good reason, I want to try to manage my condition and try to be happy for once. I want to stop hurting myself and start being there for my friends and family. I want to take off the mask and be me without fear of being blackmailed or hated for who I am. I'll still be emo ofc ;) XD

Here's to my wattpad family. ❤️

Please take my advice, I do not wish for all the bullshit that happened to me happen to you, now have a good day and ima go enjoy being old XD
And I'm not trying to attack anyone, I'm tryin to share my experience to educate and help you guys and to help so I don't hurt people who don't deserve to be hurt 💕
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MARCH 17 2005 UWU